“I can’t have kids with you!” I screamed at him, tears in my eyes.
“Little Lamb.” He was in front of my face now, holding my cheeks like he could hold me together. I leaned into his touch because I think my body believed he could. “Do you know my mom’s moving?”
“She’s…” His hands were in my hair, feeling my skull. “Are you checking my head?”
“Just have to be sure. Does anywhere hurt when I press?”
“No. Are you serious?” I stuttered. “I’m a nurse. I know when it’s fine.”
He pressed on my temples and then my skull and neck. “Pressure points matter, Lilah. It’s an acupuncture technique. This is good,” he murmured and kissed my temple. “Real good.”
“Your mom’s selling her farm?” Why did that make the tears spill over immediately. “Who will take care of the animals? And Emmy? And my lamb is—”
“You’ll take care of them,” he said like it was just another sentence to throw out, not monumental at all.
“Me?” I whispered, but it sounded strangled, completely confused as I pointed to myself. “I’m not… I don’t have the means to—”
He shoved a note in my hand. It was wrinkled and worn like he’d been carrying it for days. I unfolded it slowly, my hands shaking, my heart beating fast.
Seven to Lilah’s Heaven
Lilah’sEat Pray LoveList
1. Leave home(done)
2. Do something crazy(you went to jail, Lamb)
3. Explore food here and EAT(you like gelato, quesitos, mofongo, and mojitos… too much)
4. Explore places here and PRAY(you read at the beach, saw the fort, the streets, the stores, any other places?)-the bioluminescent water, a statue
5. Explore men and LOVE
*explored voyeurism
*explored water play
*What else, Lamb? (wax play)
6. Find peace(I can search with you forever)
7. Find heaven(with me)
*buy the farm
*accept a proposal
*marry the wolf
“I bought the farm at double her asking price. For us.”
“You what?” I screeched.
Dante whispered, “I’m going to marry you, Little Lamb, and we're going to have babies here. Right where you think expectations are too burdensome and people are always thinking you’re the absolute best. And instead you’re going to get dirty on this farm with me and prove them all wrong.”
“Are you insane?”
He went down on one knee, and he smiled bigger than I’d ever seen him smile. “I asked your dad for your hand earlier this week. I don’t think he gives a shit that your brothers are going to beat the piss out of me. I don’t either. I’ll let them have a couple good punches, then I’ll make sure we’re all on the same page.”