Somehow, we found a rhythm that worked, pushing and pulling. Thiago helped my hips to find a motion that intensified the pleasure of the two men now inside me. Kai gazed in wonder, and I reached for his cock. I wanted all of them to be a part of this. I began stroking him as he once again found my mouth with his kiss.
My muscles began to tense after only a few minutes of our dance and as I came a final time. The shuddering of my orgasm pushed them over the edge, and I felt Thiago and Michael release inside me with grunts of pleasure. Kai was not quite there, and once Michael had moved away from me I took Kai’s balls into my mouth and sucked hard as I stroked. He came, pulling himself away from my mouth and finishing on my chest.
We collapsed into a giant heap on the bed. And I instantly fell asleep, my head filled with nothing but the intensity of the incredible pleasure I’d just experienced. The guys had done exactly what I’d asked, they’d managed to help me forget.
19
RYAN
After walking around the film festival for hours I finally made my way back to the hotel. I’d wandered aimlessly letting only my thoughts dictate my direction and now they had led me back here.
I texted Tinsley as soon as I walked into the lobby. “Care to talk?”
She immediately answered, “Yes, can I meet you in your room?”
I agreed and made my way upstairs. I had no idea what I was going to say to her, but I knew we couldn’t leave things as I had this morning.
She was waiting by my door as I arrived. I took in her beauty in all its glory. I thought of all that we had been through in such a short time. She’d jumped right in to helping me when I’d been killed off the franchise. She hadn’t missed a beat, hadn’t cared that we had basically been strangers for years.
There were many sexual encounters in my life that could have led to me having a child. And in all honesty the only one I would have wanted to result in one was my time with Tinsley. She was brave, kind and thoughtful. I knew I was lucky that she had been the one raising my son.
“Hey there,” she said quietly standing up from the doorway she had been leaning against.
“Hey yourself,” I said, opening the door for us and leading her in. “Are you hungry, I can get room service?”
“Actually, no. The guys came over to cheer me up and I don’t think there is any food left in the state of Utah because it’s all in carts up in my room,” she said with a laugh that she quickly stifled.
“Ryan, I am so sorry,” she cried, collapsing against me.
“Tinsley, don’t cry,” I said, my own words catching in my chest.
“I never meant to hurt you. I thought I was helping you. By the time I figured out that I was pregnant you had already gotten your big break. You were living in LA, and I just couldn’t bring myself to do it.
“I never expected to be in your life as I am now. I should have told you the minute I got assigned to your project, but the timing never felt right. I am so, so sorry,” she cried.
“You’re right Tinsley, you should have. You had no right to keep something like that from me. I’ve missed all his firsts, his first step, his first word, his first day of school. How do you think that makes me feel?
“I mean what is he going to think of me? That I’m the asshole that never cared to be in his life. You’ve made me into some sort of villain in his life. The guy that didn’t want to be around. I may be able to understand your reasoning, but he can’t,” I said exasperated.
“I know that,” she said, tearing up all over again.
“Tinsley, part of why this hurts so much is because of promises I made to myself when I was young. I promised that if I ever had a child, I would never make them feel the way my parents made me feel, that I was an afterthought, that I was a mistake.”
“I spent years in counseling dealing with the mistakes my parents made. It took me a long time to get to where I am today. I have a relationship with both my parents finally and it’s not perfect but it works. But it was hard after the ways they acted. Then when I found out about our son, it hurt me knowing I’d been put in such a bad position.
“But I also know you. And I know you would never do anything to intentionally hurt me or anyone you care about. I just wish I had known Tins. I could have been there for him, for you.” I said as I embraced her.
She melted into my warmth. I felt every ounce of tension and anxiety slowly leaving her body. I had never intended to cause her pain with my response, I just needed to feel my feelings.
I pulled slowly away from her and put a hand on each shoulder. “How do we move forward?” I asked, my brow knitted in concern as I started deep into her beautiful green eyes.
“Do you want to be in his life?” Tinsley asked in almost a whisper. “I’ll understand if the answer is no.” She straightened up, hardening herself to her own question.
“Of course I want to be in his life. I’m all in. I just need to know what you’ll allow that to look like,” I said, taking her hand in mine.
“Really?” she asked, looking completely relieved. “When do you want to meet him?”
“The sooner the better! As soon as we get home, if you'll let me.” I said.