When Rhett reaches for me, I shake my head again, stepping out of his reach.
I can’t look at him any longer and go to my room. I struggle to hold it together until I close the door behind me.
I don’t know who hurt me more. Rhett or Logan?
Seeing all those names on Logan’s list makes me wonder if what we have is even real. He won’t even kiss me, but he gave himself so easily to six other women.
Where all his words just empty promises so he could add me to his list?
Chapter 10
Logan
Rhett phoned, sounding out of his mind with worry. All I know is that it’s got something to do with Mia.
Did Rhett find out about Mia and me? Even if he did, I’ll face whatever’s coming. Not being able to wait for the elevator, I take the stairs two at a time up to his apartment. When I walk inside, I’m surprised to see Carter there.
“Is Mia okay?” I ask, not caring about anything else.
Rhett turns away from the window, and when I see that he’s been crying, my heart almost stops.
“What happened? Where’s Mia?”
It’s amazing how many bad scenarios can flash through your head in less than ten seconds. Anything from a car accident to Mia being missing. Every single scenario leaves my gut more twisted than the one before.
“She’s in her room,” he says, his voice raw. I’ve never seen Rhett so broken before, but I’m filled with relief, knowing that she’s here. “Josie is on the screw crew list.”
; I frown, not understanding what that has to do with anything.
“We all fucked her,” Carter spits it out as if it’s leaving a bad taste in his mouth just saying the words.
“What?”
“You all had sex with Josie,” Mia says softly from where she’s standing outside the room. Her eyes are red and she’s clutching a tissue in a death grip. I can’t remember a time where she looked even half upset as she does right now.
I want to hold her and promise that everything will be okay, but before I can take a step towards her Jaxson and Marcus come in, looking worried.
“Hey, what’s up?” Marcus asks.
Mia looks at Marcus and Jaxson, then Carter. “Because you all used her she thought she could get back at you all by using me.”
I don’t like the tone of Mia’s voice and I’m still not following what she’s saying. It’s scaring the shit out of me, seeing her so upset.
I start towards her, needing to hold her, but she holds up her hand while taking deep breaths. It looks like she’s going to be sick.
“Don’t. Just don’t, Logan.” Her voice is hauntingly raw, and it’s killing me to see her like this. “Josie stole my phone so she could cut me off from everyone I loved. She pretended to be my friend, most probably so she could have a front row seat to my pain.”
She shakes her head and then she looks at Rhett. Her eyes look like crushed leaves as they drown in pain.
“You all had sex with her,” she whispers, her voice cracking over the words, like a dying fire that’s being drowned out by a storm.
Then she looks at me, and it feels as if someone is gutting me. “You had sex with Josie.” This time her voice is clear and strong, and somehow that makes it hurt more.
“I have no words to describe how used I feel. How disappointed I am.” She walks to Marcus and only then does she start to cry. “You started the list, Marcus. Because of you turning women into nothing but a list of names that were used, Josie paid a guy to sleep with me. That guy took my virginity. It might not mean anything to you, but to me …” Her voice disappears on a sob before she forces the rest out. “I feel dirty and used. I hope it was worth it.”
Marcus looks like he’s going to puke. I think we all feel that way.