“No. Dirty things. All the dirty things I want to do to you,” he tells me. I feel my cheeks heat as I walk over and climb onto the bed next to him. Justice immediately reaches over and pulls me against him. Our naked bodies heat each other as we lie here in silence for a few minutes. It’s nice having times like this where sex isn’t the main thought for both of us.
Neither of us speaks. We just lie in each other’s arms, enjoying being close. I love listening to his heartbeat when I rest my head on his chest, but the silence makes me wonder what he’s thinking about. Is he upset by what we just did? Does he know I don’t want that ever again? I don’t think I like being the one in control.
Too many things run through my head as I lie here. What the future holds for us? I want to know if he sees something more for the two of us or if all we’ll ever be is this. Something about that thought hurts. I don’t know if I can handle more, but not having him also bothers me.
I want Justice more than I’ve ever wanted anyone in my life. However, I don’t know if he feels the same way even though he’s said he wanted me too. He admitted to being afraid of losing me but is that enough?
I sigh as I relax into him. He runs his fingers up and down my naked back.
“Are you okay?” I finally ask him.
“I’m good. What about you? You okay?”
“I’m okay.”