I hate it and love it.
He hurt me and healed me.
But I will never let him know how much this healed me. He will only ever know of the pain. He will see himself as a monster. When he looks in the mirror, he will only see the boy his father raised him to be—a beast.
I swallow hard, preparing for my next words.
“I’ve never been raped.”
He doesn’t hesitate. He thrusts faster, building us both to the edge of everything—pain, joy, forgiveness.
I feel his cock drive into me over and over.
I bite my lip, but it’s not enough. I cry out over and over, but I don’t know if it’s from pain or ecstasy. It all blends together into one mess of emotions.
It is everything.
Everything I’ve wanted and hated.
I could love this boy, if only he’d let me. Instead, I hate him.
I hate him for selling me.
I hate him for taking me.
I hate him for telling me the truth.
I hate him for punishing me.
I hate him for hurting me.
But I could love him for healing me.
Which is why I’ll never think of this moment again. He broke what was left of me, but somehow the final breaking gives me something back. The ability to finally put the pieces back together.
I scream. It’s the loudest I’ve ever screamed. And everything I’m feeling released in one mighty orgasm as I feel Enzo’s own release inside as he jerks within my body.
But when he stills, he doesn’t relax like a man who just made a woman come. He was so consumed with his own orgasm and revenge, he barely paid attention to me at the end.
We both pant heavily, his cock still rests inside me, and finally, he answers my last truth or lie.
“Lie,” he says more cautiously than the rest. “You were raped by Jarod. Langston…” He can’t finish his sentence. Still not sure if Langston fucked me or not.
“I’ve never been raped, and Langston never fucked me. You just took my virginity—ripped it from my body in your seek for revenge. You may not have raped me, but you hurt me instead of loved me. Because you are a monster.” And then I say the words I suspect will hurt the worst, “You’re just like your father.”
I see the crushing pain on his face, and I know I fulfilled my promise. Enzo punished me, but I got my own revenge.
16
Enzo
That was her first time.
She’s never been fucked before.
Never been raped.
Jarod never touched her in that way.