The thought made me smile with happiness that ached in my chest and made my heart melt with relief. He was trying, and God help me, that made me so freaking happy I had to remind myself we were just friends.
Because the truth was, I wanted it to be about me. I wanted this to be about him and me and…things I shouldn’t want.
“Silly Ren,” I muttered, sighing tiredly.
Don’t go wishing for things you can’t have. Just be glad he’s healing.
Just don’t go there.
Oh, but I wanted to, and when my wolf hummed, I had a feeling I wouldn’t have a choice. We, as in every part of me, wanted him, and the whole ‘friends’ thing may not work out because, sure as hell, Caleb Chase was not going to react well if I went anywhere near more than just friendship.
Or, he could totally want your—
“Go to sleep.” I hissed, cutting off my thoughts and letting my eyes slam shut.
I wasn’t going to think about being more than friends with Caleb Chase. That road led to disaster. I knew it and was smart enough not to let myself entertain these kinds of thoughts.
But I wanted to because what I had discovered about Caleb Chase made me like him. It made me trust him.
It made me…think about the dreams I had as a young girl, and remember the kind of man I had always envisioned being with. Unfortunately, the more I got to know Caleb, the more I was coming to see that he fit those dreams perfectly, and that was the problem.
Because I shouldn’t want more, and the reality was, I kind of did.
Chapter 7 Ren
“Y
es!”
I hissed the word and writhed as pleasure bombarded me, the wet flick of a tongue between my legs so good that I nearly climaxed. Confused but unwilling to question it, I craned my neck to look down and almost died of pleasure when I met a hot stare from Caleb’s blue-gold eyes. He didn’t stop what he was doing, his magical tongue continuing its flicking drags over my clit, but that look was so hot it nearly made me scream as the pleasure built.
In that stare, I saw dominance, need and pleasure so potent it was as if he was looking directly into my soul, and giving me everything I needed.
“Please.” I moaned, my hands coming down to twist in his hair and pull him closer, my orgasm so close it almost hurt.
I felt empty, my sex clenching, begging for him to fill me. He must have seen it because before I could plead again, Caleb shot up, reached for me, and flipped me over, his big, blazing-hot body coming over mine. The first thrust of his shaft made me scream. Both pleasure and pain mixed, causing a tremble to set off in my belly, but I had no time to think as he pulled back and thrust again. Over and over. Filling me. Completing me. And then claiming me as I felt the sting of teeth on my shoulder.
Screaming with pleasure, I accepted the bite and threw my head back, my need so strong I—
I came awake with a wail when the dream ended abruptly and left me panting and unfulfilled. Blinking, it took me a second to understand that I was in my trailer, and when I did, I fell back onto the bed with an aching chest filled with anguish.
What I saw before the fog cleared scared me and had me curling into a ball.
“No,” I whined, trying to deny it even as my wolf chuffed her sadness, and my inner voice remained quiet. “That can’t be right. It was just a dream. That’s what happens when you fall asleep fantasizing, Ren.”
But I knew, even as I tried to lie to myself and convinced my head and heart it wasn’t real, that the sobbing image I saw of myself before I came awake fully was real.
“It isn’t real,” I repeated, praying now because even as I said it, I knew I was just too scared to accept what had happened.
Oh, honey…
“Don’t say it. Just don’t.” I pleaded. “It was just a dream.”
Orit was a flash of premonition. You know it’s true, Renny. You’ve had these moments before. The night Shane was here, you had a moment where you saw what he’d have done to you if you’d gone inside the trailer. You were right then, too.
Yeah, I was, but I didn’t want to be, and…this…
“This is bad, isn’t it?” I asked, unable to convince myself of the lie I needed to believe when my wolf whined this time and felt like she was struggling.