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“It’s better than running away from every relationship as soon as things get rocky.”

“I’m pretty sure the only thing that kept getting in the way of my relationships was your dick,” she said, not able to hold her anger down.

“Oh, come on, Lex, give me some credit. Sometimes my tongue, too.”

Lexi stood abruptly. “Why? Why didn’t you try with me? Why every other person but not me? Why am I still the only one here, Jack?”

“I did try with you,” he said, not breaking eye contact. “We tried it out in New York.”

“Bullshit! You slept with someone else in New York. Tell me the truth.”

“Lex, I did try—”

“You know I talked to Stella?”

“What?” Jack asked. He looked seriously confused in that moment.

“I saw her at the D-Bags show,” Lexi said, taking a seat when the couple across the room started staring at her.

“That was more than two years ago.” He didn’t look pleased that this was coming up. “What did she say?”

“She said that she was sorry for what she had done to me. What did she do to me, Jack?”

“Why is this just now coming up?”

“Because she told me that you said no like five thousand times. She said that you didn’t want to sleep with her that night and that she seduced your drunk ass. She said you had an excuse for being a total moron that night, but you didn’t even tell me that! You said there was no excuse for what you did, and then you pulled out a f**king diamond ring, and poof! You vanished into thin air.”

“I told you I had no excuse for what I did with Stella because there was no excuse for what I did. I couldn’t come crawling back to you, begging you to see me as the total moron,” he said, spitting her own words back at her, “who had slept with someone else, groveling for you to take me back.”

“But I would have!” she snapped.

“Lexi, whether or not Stella seduced me and I told her no five million times did not matter to me because I let you down that night. You were right. We were different. And then I slept with her. No matter what happened to get me there…that was still the outcome. I didn’t deserve you.”

Lexi just stared at him. All this time, and it came down to that one statement. He didn’t deserve her. It hurt worse than she had ever thought it would. Other people had said it to her, but she always ignored them.

“I had to own up to what I’d done in New York and take responsibility for my actions. I gave in that night. The thousand times I’d said no didn’t matter because of the one time I said yes.”

“It would have mattered to me.”

“Well, we can’t change what happened,” Jack said, leaning back in the booth. His eyes were distant. “No matter what we might want…we have to live with our mistakes and live with our past.”

“That’s all I’ve been doing…living with my mistakes,” Lexi said.

“Yeah. A lot of the time, it just feels more like dying from my mistakes rather than living.”

Lexi sighed and nodded. “I know what you mean.”

“If anyone does,” he said, staring up at her again, “you do.”

Food arrived, and they ate together in silence. Jack’s mediation was swiftly approaching, and she had to get back to work. But she found it difficult to rush back to their obligations. Even when they argued, even in the silence, even when it felt like they were just milliseconds away from ripping each other’s clothes off—things with Jack always felt natural and normal. She had never gotten over that feeling of being around him. It was an indescribable feeling that, even through their friendship, they had never gotten rid of.

Things had just changed. But one thing never changed—Jack was always the person she turned to when things went wrong in her life.

Jack paid even though Lexi had insisted that it was a terrible idea with the divorce proceedings. But he had just laughed it off and told her that he wasn’t going to end up penniless. He could pay for lunch.

“Good luck at the mediation. I hope she takes it seriously,” Lexi said.

“Thanks. Did you want to come over after? I can tell you about how it went, and you can see the new place.”

Lexi bit her lip and looked down. “I don’t know, Jack.”

Memories flashed through her mind of him asking her to come over to his place, him making it up to her, him promising not to cross a line. Her face heated, and she felt like every dirty thought was written clear across her forehead.

Jack chuckled softly at her. “Come here, you,” he said as he drew her into a hug.

She wrapped her arms around his neck and tried not to feel completely embarrassed. She breathed in that old familiar scent, reminding her body not to react to the association she had with the smell. When he released her, his blue eyes were still laughing at her. She dropped her arms quickly and tucked a lock of hair behind her ear.

“You know I’m still married, right?”

Lexi smacked him on the arm. “Of course I know. I’m engaged, remember?” she said, flashing him the diamond rock on her finger.

The humor left his face, and he nodded. “You don’t have to remind me. I know.”

“Yeah…”

“I was just suggesting you come see my place—nothing more than that. It’s what friends do. If you’re not comfortable though…” he said, trailing off.

Lexi sighed. “We’ll see, Jack.”

“All right.” He didn’t seem to want to push his luck.

“Remember to listen to your attorney, and don’t give in to her baiting. Because, Jack,” she said, “she’s going to try to bait you. Just…just try not to let her win, okay? That’s all she wants. If you’ve done nothing wrong, then you’ve nothing to hide. You’ll do great.”

“Thanks, Lex,” Jack said, even as the color drained from his face.

Lexi paced back and forth across the living room, a legal pad tucked under her arm. She had work that needed to get done, but she was having the hardest time concentrating. There was just too much to do. Besides work, she had so much wedding stuff to do that she was ready to go cross-eyed. Plus, Jack was currently in his mediation with Bekah. Lexi was anxious to hear how about it and if she had been right about Bekah baiting him.


Tags: K.A. Linde Avoiding Erotic