He poured me a small glass and I took it. Together we drank, looking out over the city.
“You know, nothing’s keeping you here. You could leave now, put all of this behind you.”
He didn’t know how wrong he was. But even aside from the Mike situation, I didn’t want to leave. Willa meant too much to me.
Jason meant too much to me.
“You know how we nannies are,” I said with a small smile of my own. “Ride or die.”
He chuckled. “I appreciate your loyalty.”
He’ll be eating those words.
“Thanks,” I said.
“This is all too much for you. I regret not warning you before, but I didn’t think it’d be so difficult to keep you at arm’s length.”
“And why is that?”
I wasn’t sure why I asked the question—it was too probing for a man like Jason. I expected him to dismiss it, to possibly even be impatient with me for being bold enough to ask.
“Because I care about you, April.”
I said nothing, stunned.
“Because I care about you more than I realized. I knew from the moment I saw you that you were something special, that you’d struck me in a way no woman had before. I tried to write it off, telling myself that it was simply because you were beautiful—a physical attraction, nothing more.”
He went on, my heart warming with every word.
“But the more I’ve gotten to know you, the more I’ve seen firsthand your strength and will and kindness, the more I’ve come to understand it’s something much more than that. Maybe it was a mistake for us to sleep together, but trying to fight my feelings for you has been like trying to stand against a force of nature. For the first time in my life, I feel…helpless, like I’m caught in the middle of something I can’t control.”
He turned to me, his eyes blue and brilliant even in the dark.
“I have feelings for you, April. And I can’t ignore them any longer. I don’t know what’s going to happen between us, but I don’t want to resist them. I’m tired of lying to myself.”
“And so am I.”
Fuck. It was my chance to back off, but I was just as helpless as he was.
Jason stepped closer to me, placing his hand on my hip.
“Then there’s only one thing to do.”
I didn’t need him to say it. I knew what it was.
Our bodies were flush together, Jason looming over me, towering, making me feel small and protected all at once.
I wanted a kiss, and he gave it to me.
The lights of the city melted into a blur all around us as Jason’s lips touched mine. It was a bad idea, maybe the worst idea, but I wanted it more than anything.
What the hell was wrong with us? As the kiss went on, I felt like Jason and I were two drivers in two separate cars, zooming toward one another, all the opportunity in the world to change course.
But we didn’t. Instead, we both drove headlong into the fire and chaos that awaited us.
He put both hands on my hips, my lips melting into his, that familiar warmth spreading from my legs. No man had ever made me feel the way Jason did, and all I wanted was to be wrapped up in his spell.
His cock was solid, pressing against me through his slacks. I moved my hands over the outlines of his muscles through his shirt, wanting nothing more than to see them on top of me, watching them work.