“Bonded?”
“No, I mean, I don’t think so.”
“I want you to continue to be cautious and make sure that you aren’t putting yourself in situations where you are compromising. You need to be upfront with everyone, Dom included. I know your expectations for your future pack are high, but you’ve been working so hard on your self-worth, Kelsey, and I’m very proud of you. I just want you going into these new relationships with your eyes open as well as your heart. What happened to you with Meera was a hurtful thing, but it’s not indicative of you as a person. You deserve this happiness and as long as you are comfortable with the pace in which the relationships are moving is all that matters.” She opens a drawer and hands me my prescription of suppressants for the week. “Next week, I would like to talk more about how you feel about living on your own and how you’re handling it.”
“Robin?”
“Yes, Kelsey.”
“Should I tell Dom that I’m interested in him?”
“Is he who you picture in your dream pack?”
“Yeah, he really is.”
“Then I think you have your answer.”
“Thanks, Robin.” I take my purse and shove the tattered blanket in there, as well as my prescription and head home. Talking to Robin makes me feel better. I was worried she would be mad about me going to Sweet Nectar, or think that I’m too interested in Emmett and Shyla, but she didn’t put down my feelings at all. Annoyingly, I leave the appointment with some bigger picture questions in mind.
Chapter 7
“Youdon’thavetogo,” Dom tells me from the driver’s side. It’s embarrassing enough that I’m terrified of driving and have to have my Alpha escort me everywhere. Does he think I can’t hold my own around the girl he has a crush on?
I won’t lie. I am trying to be accommodating. Dom has given me everything. I never thought that I would find an Alpha who could be so patient with me. I know that I’m difficult, and if this is the one thing that he asks of me—he isn’t even really asking. Then I can do it. It doesn’t hurt that Kelsey is beautiful. I’m not sure I’ve really conceptualized the idea of another Omega joining our pack. But surely we could figure it out.
“I want to get to know Kelsey. It’s not a big deal.”
“It is to me. Cam, baby. I don’t need this. We’re good.”
I look out the window, watching as we pass all the houses that look the same but with slightly different exteriors. How do I tell him that he would regret it, regret choosing me as his Omega over someone else? Dom deserves someone who pushes him. That doesn’t constantly need reassurance. Fuck, I’m tired of being so melancholy.
“Dom, even if you don’t want to pursue her, she is still a friend. I’d like to get to know her.”
“If you ever want to leave, just call me, and I’ll leave work to pick you up.”
He’s already using his lunch break to take me here. I wonder if I will ever stop feeling like a burden. I don’t drive, I’m hard to read, I keep odd hours; I don’t vocalize what I’m feeling and hold it all in until it bursts out of me. While I’m not completely reliant on Dom financially, it feels like I am. It’s his house, his car, he does most of the cooking. I’m still not sure what he sees in me, but I’m too selfish to say it out loud. I’d rather be selfish and keep Dom than for him to realize how much better he could do than me.
Deep down I know if I wasn’t an Omega, he wouldn’t be interested in me, so I hold on to my designation like a lifeline.
“Cam, are you all right?” he asks. I didn’t even notice when he parked. I look over at him. He’s so handsome and large. He gives me one of his gentle smiles. Dom is easily one of the most tender Alphas I’ve ever met.
“Yeah, I’m good,” I reply. He smiles again as we both get out of the car and knock on Kelsey’s door.
She answers quickly and I think both of our eyes pop out of our heads a little. She’s wearing a light pink top with blueberries all over it that push her tits up nearly to her chin. Her high-waisted bottoms accentuate her hips and waist.
“Yay, so glad you came. Come on in, Emmett’s out back.”
“Emmett?” Dom asks in his Alpha tone. I nearly pop a boner from hearing it. “I thought it was just going to be you two?”
Kelsey rolls her eyes, her hair bouncing on top of her head as she walks toward the back of the house. I quietly shut the door behind me.
“You never asked,” she says. I wish I had her confidence. She talks to Dom like she gives no fucks what he thinks.
“I don’t want my Omega around another Alpha without me around,” Dom says, and yup, boner is in full force now. Thank goodness I’m still wearing a shirt, as I tuck my cock as best as I can into the waistband of my shorts. Both Dom and Kelsey spin and turn to look at me at the same time.
A grin forms on Kelsey’s face. “You smell like vanilla and brown sugar,” she says. Kelsey walks closer to me and that’s when I can smell her.
“You smell like blueberry muffins.”