″Don’t leave me.” I hadn’t meant to say the words out loud, was only thinking them, but desperation is in my voice anyway, and the way I hold him tight against me. I never want to be alone again. Not if it means falling back into the shadows.
″I’m not going anywhere,” Callum says as I continue to lace kisses along his neck.
My fingers fumble with his tie, trying to free the rest of his body. My eyes burn when I can’t get him undressed fast enough. I only notice I’m crying after his thumb brushes away a tear from my cheek.
″What’s wrong, baby?” His voice is soft as he pulls my head into his chest, cradling me while I try to force the tears to stop.
″Nothing’s wrong.” My words come out on a broken cry.
″Then what are these tears for?” His hand strokes my back.
″I’m probably going to cry when we’re intimate for a while. It’s all so overwhelming.”
″Okay.” His lips graze the top of my head. “What can I do to make you comfortable?”
I wrap my arms around his neck and my head sags against his shoulder. “Don’t let me go,” I whisper.
His hands stay at my back and I can feel his chest rise and fall until I’m able to breathe again.
Until I know that I’m safe in his arms.
Chapter twenty-seven
Gentleisn’tinmynature. Oh fuck, it will take every ounce of my willpower not to slam Haley against the wall while I pull her hair and fuck her hard and fast. Fuck her until sweat is dripping from my forehead and my balls tighten as I pound into her until I’m coming.
But I can’t. Not after her admission. Not after I promised her that I would do whatever she needed. And especially not after I held her while she cried in my brother’s bathroom this afternoon. She’s been in mine for fifteen minutes now.
″Are you okay?” Her voice sounds from the doorway of the bathroom.
I lift my head. It’s a black satin dress with lace all around it. The sight of her sends blood rushing to my cock. I inhale sharply as I force myself not to jump out of bed and devour her before she’s ready. Her tits are practically spilling out of the top as she approaches the bed.
″More than okay. I want to fuck you so badly right now,” I rasp.
She blushes, sitting beside me. “Andi helped me pick it out. I know nothing about this stuff.”
I offer a soft smile, allowing my finger to caress her cheek. She nuzzles into the touch for a second but then shies away.
″Are you sure you’re okay with this?” I ask.
″Yeah.”
She nods, then huffs. A hand runs through her hair, and she chews on the inside of her cheek.
″You have to relax,” I say.
She shoots me a glare, eyes narrowing as she scoffs. “Geez. Thanks.”
″Look at me.”
When she refuses, I grab her by the chin and force her face to mine. Our foreheads touch, and the tension I’m holding in my neck melts away.
I want nothing more than to free her of the demons haunting her. To take away the pain, and make this experience okay for her. “We don’t have to do this. We never have to do anything that makes you uncomfortable. Ever, Haley. Okay?”
″I know that. But it’s also unrealistic to go forever without having sex.”
″You’re putting too much pressure on yourself. What can we do to help that? Hmm?” I scoot myself behind her so that she’s sitting between my legs. My hands fall on either shoulder, applying pressure to ease her stress. “Come here, love. Let’s get this tension from your shoulders. Just my hands massaging. Nothing sexual.”
She moans, her head dropping forward when my fingers dig into the tight muscles in her back. “That feels great.”