“It’s ours. Wish you were with Ev all you like. It’s part of what sucks us in, every time we see you with her. You’re a good mum, Lils. You’ve been dumped in such a shit of a situation, but every time you put her first and that makes us… me…” He paused and shook his head. “It makes all the primal fucking instincts that rule my life go into overdrive. It makes my heart pound and my body ache. It makes me love you.”
“Jasper…”
“You don’t have to say it, not yet, at least. Not until you’re ready. I know it takes betas longer but—”
I cut him off with a vicious kiss, one that had his hands slapping down on my butt and grinding his body into mine.
“I needed that,” I panted between kisses.
“I know. I’ll always know, and I’ll always want to give you what you need. You’re the woman I’ve been looking for all this time, love, and frankly, it was worth the wait.”
When I kissed him this time, it was so much slower. Passion couldn’t get in the way of this. His hands sank into my hair, holding me still as he kissed me right back.
“Lils…” He mumbled my name between kisses, our lips barely able to separate long enough for him to let the word out. “Lils, I need you.”
I pulled back slightly and stared into his eyes, seeing everything I needed to know right there. I nodded slowly, not specifying exactly what I was agreeing to, and then grabbed the soap from the dish by the bath. I smoothed it across his chest, his nipples beading tight as a result. He let me smooth the bar up and down his arms but when I went to wash further down, he stopped me.
“I’m hanging by a thread as it is, beta,” he growled, pushing me back into the bath and then looming over me.
His body looked huge as it blocked out the lights, water droplets hitting my skin as he hung there. A hand went around my wrist, keeping me pinned against the bath as he squeezed. I let go of the soap. He pulled back, satisfied I’d keep myself where I was supposed to be, before holding the soap up in front of me and lathering it in his hands. I jumped the first time he touched me, then settled as those big hands smoothed over my skin, calming me anew. He’d brought me in here to relax and wind down and somehow, he’d achieved it.
The way his hands wrapped around my throat, my pulse skittering wildly under his grip. How his fingers dug into the muscles of my shoulders, forcing them to release. Then a slower, much more sensual exploration as one single finger slid down my sternum, waiting for the moment I arched up into his touch before he covered my breasts with his hands.
“You’re fucking beautiful, Lils,” he told me. “But these are the cherry on top.” He rubbed his thumb across my nipples, and I gasped in response. “Tits I can barely get my hands around?” He pushed them together which created a deep ache inside me. “So soft and plush. At some point you’ll let me push my cock between them, right? I fucking ache to do that. To rut against everything that is soft in you with everything that’s hard in me.”
I was pulled up out of the water and set on the edge of the bath, as he knelt between my legs.
“But not yet, not tonight.” His hand slid down and he grazed my clit with his knuckle. Another finger quested forward, his head tilted to one side in question.
Do you want me? it asked. Do you want this? And more than that, did I want what lurked inside this cabin? Dinner had probably arrived and was set out on the table, but what if I satisfied other appetites first? What if I learned to share in a whole other way? I found my head nodding to all of those questions, giving my assent in ways I didn’t dare articulate. This felt too much, too good, and entirely too decadent for me.
“Too much?” Jasper said, smiling his toothy wolf smile. “Baby, you have no idea.”
He wrapped me up in a towel then kicked open the door. Reed and Damon stalked down the hallway after us, their silver eyes glowing in the low light. We emerged into a massive alpha-sized bedroom, complete with a bed that would easily fit the entire pack. The towel was dragged over my skin, whisking away all of the water and just leaving me raw and needy for them. I let out a little whine as Damon and Reed stripped off their clothes.
“I do love that sound,” Damon said with a smug grin, coming to stand beside Jasper. “Don’t you, brother?”
“There’s nothing better than the sound of a naughty little beta that’s decided to come and play,” Jasper said. “There’s a needy woman under that responsibility and respectability.”
“Don’t remind her of all of that.”
Reed crossed the room abruptly, sliding in behind me, his mouth going to the sensitive skin of my neck.
“She needs to escape all of that shit, just for a night at least.” His hand went to my hair, grabbing a great big handful of it before using it to pull my head back.
“That’s right, this isn’t the first dance for the two of you,” Damon said with a smirk. “And what was that like, brother? Was she sweet?”
“Sweeter than I deserved to taste,” Reed replied. “Everything I’ve eaten or drunk since tastes like dust in comparison.”
“And did she quiver in your arms, just like she does now?” Damon took a step closer, but his eyes were on me, not his brothers.
“I could feel her pulse under my palm, fragile as a moth’s wings and I wanted to cradle my hands around it and protect it from all the bullshit of the world.”
“And what did she feel like?” Damon’s grin widened, his teeth flashing, making my pulse race. “A tight little beta cunt squeezing around your knot.”
“Fucking more intense than you’d think, brother,” Reed rasped, all the heat going from his voice, replaced instead with a desperate hunger. “You’re locked down inside her, unable to get away, with no hope of getting your walls up.” His lips brushed against my neck again, and he said the words into my skin. “She buries herself inside you just as deep as you're locked down in her. There’s nothing else but the fucking feel, the scent of her. Nothing but the sound of her little breaths, then moans as you tease her again and again. It feels so fucking good I haven’t been able to get the sensation out of my mind, but…”
Reed’s teeth bit down slowly, making me squirm against his grip before he licked the reddened skin, then kissed the site.