Julie: Fireworks everywhere. Like the ones at freakin' Disneyland. I know her so well. I know her as a friend. I love her as a friend. And then this… I guess it's like you said with the hot tattoo artist. There is something more intimate about it.
Imogen: There is.
Julie: She intimidates me. Or maybe I'm just not ready for sex yet, I don't know. I trust her. But I'm scared too.
Imogen: It's always scary at first.
Julie: For you, really? You're so brave.
Imogen: For me too.
Julie: You didn't act that way.
Imogen: I put on a strong face.
Julie: Who was the first guy you *ahem*?
Imogen: What does *ahem* stand for?
Julie: Oral sex.
Imogen: Me on him?
Julie: And the other way. But that first.
Imogen: You remember the guy who took me to winter formal?
Julie: He was cute.
Imogen: Yeah. And he was kinda sweet, too. Maybe that's why I tried it because he didn't push. There was this vibe at school, like all the girls were doing it, like it was unnatural to not blow a guy you've been dating for a few months. I want to say it was some douchebag dude who started the rumor, but I think it was women. I don't know why I bought it. My nerdy friends weren't ready either. But a few teammates… they would play Never Have I Ever on the bus and shoot sad looks at the girls without experience.
Julie: That's fucked up.
Imogen: That's why I worry about you.
Julie: Did you like it?
Imogen: Sorta. Sorta not. It's weird. But it's nice with a guy you like, a guy who's patient with you.
Julie: Patrick?
Imogen: Yes.
Julie: Zack?
Imogen: Sometimes. There is something sexy about it. But when a guy pushes… that kind of ruins the whole thing.
Julie: Did he go down on you? Was he the first?
Imogen: He was.
Julie: The winter formal guy didn't offer?
Imogen: He did, but I was too nervous. Embarrassed, I guess. People said it was a way to stay in control, to keep your clothes on, and it is, in some ways, but it's not in others.
Julie: Maybe I should stick with women.
Imogen: Whoever treats you well.