“You’re not alright, are you,” he said. It wasn’t a question.
I swallowed hard and shook my head as much as I could lying back against the pillow. “I want to go home.” I hated the way my voice sounded so strangled.
Appius nodded, then shifted to balance over me so that he could kiss me again. “You miss your lover, don’t you.”
Again, I nodded, my throat and chest squeezing so tight that I couldn’t form words to reply.
“And your friends,” he went on after another kiss. “I like the way you talk about your friends, the Sons of the Cities. They sound nice. I think I would like them.”
“You would,” I croaked. “They would like you, too.”
Appius smiled. “That’s a nice thought.”
We stayed there for a second, just looking at each other. My emotions were so big, but so scattered, that I wasn’t sure what I thought about Appius right then. I wasn’t sure what I thought about Leander and Darius, or Mara, or Lucius either. I still felt alone, but it was a different kind of alone.
“Alright,” Appius said, pushing back and reaching for the ointment again. “Tell me how I do this and I’ll do it to make you feel better.”
I laughed in spite of everything. Appius was asking how to fuck me the same way he would ask me to show him how to splint a broken arm or blend herbs to make a headache tonic.
Who was I to brush the whole thing off or tell him no?
I rolled over, positioning myself so that my ass was wide open to him.
“It’s not complicated,” I said. “Slick your cock with the ointment and get hard, then smear a little bit on my hole to ease the way. Then just—” I shrugged, “—push in.”
I was sure he would have more questions than that, because Appius questioned everything, but instead, like he was trying out something we’d learned in class but had just started practicing, he followed every one of my instructions.
Every one of them.
“I can’t…it’s not….”
“Just keep pushing and it’ll go in,” I said, back to the point where I wanted to laugh.
Already, I was drawing the conclusion that Appius would probably be more comfortable on the other end of things.
With a strangled groan that was quickly followed by a sound of surprise, he pushed past my ring of muscle and sank deep. I relaxed and let my shoulders drop, working to adjust the angle so that he would hit all the right places in me.
“Shift a little,” I told him haltingly as he tried moving. “Down a bit more…go out a bit…yes, like that,” I growled as my body lit up with excitement.
Appius might have tried to say something, but he’d apparently just discovered why fucking someone in the ass felt so good as his words turned into a sound of pleasure. He moved fast, gripping my hips for stability. It wasn’t half bad, all things considered, but exactly as I’d expected, he came quickly. Judging by the sounds he made, his orgasm surprised him.
“Oh! Oh! Oh!” he gasped as he thrust fast and hard a few times, then pulled out and fell backwards. Actually fell. I could tell he’d lost his balance as he separated from me.
I laughed. Genuinely instead of because my nerves were so raw that I whatever emotion I had came out as laughter. I dropped to my side and twisted so that I could get a better look at Appius.
Appius seemed stunned. He blinked up at the ceiling, his chest rising and falling quickly, a fine sheen of sweat over his body. And honestly, he looked a little irresistible like that.
I crawled around until I was over him, my knees braced on either side of his hips, then I bent down to kiss him.
“What do you think?” I asked, I couldn’t resist grinding my still-hard cock against his flagging one, even though it was a bit of a mess. Everything was a mess right now. A littleactualmess was nothing.
“That was….” Appius panted instead of answering.
I laughed at his lack of answer. Suddenly, I couldn’t stop myself from laughing. My emotions had swung from one end of the spectrum to the other, and now it was like they were careening out of control.
“My turn,” I said, half to shock him and half because I still ached to come, no matter how I managed to do that.
“Your turn to…what?” Appius asked, looking more than a little nervous as he blinked up at me.