“What are you doing, Miranda?” He eyed me suspiciously.
I could hear the words he had said in Carmel.Just love me, Miranda. That’s all I need. I did love him, and I wanted to show him with my lips wrapped around him.
I rolled my hips, shimmying my shoulders and blew him a kiss. “I’m dancing, silly. Just one more… please.”
“It’s almost midnight… Are you sure?”
“Mhm.”
He filled the glass and passed it to me. Again, I drank it down without pausing. “Yes…” Oh I felt it… freedom. I could conquer the world. I could overcome my fears, or so I told myself.
Before I could jump Will’s bones, a slow song started.
He pulled me into a close embrace, then dotted kisses from my shoulder up to my neck as we swayed to the sultry song I didn’t recognize. Not that it mattered. I was preoccupied with getting down on my knees.
“Come here.” I took his hand, leading him to the sofa.
Will followed, intrigue written all over his face. I proceed to unbutton his pants and pulled the zipper down slowly. I licked my lips as I slid his pants and boxers simultaneously down his hips.
His dick sprang out, greeting me with an enthusiastic pop. I wrapped my hand around it and tugged gently. “I want you… in my mouth. And after I finish, I want your tongue in me.”
“Fuck,” he growled. The fire in his eyes told me all I needed to know. Will wanted this as much as I did. “Anything you want… it’s yours. But are you sure? I don’t need to be in your mouth. Although I do need my tongue in your pussy.” His eyes narrowed, drinking in my body.
“Stop talking. I want you naked.”
Will quickly tore off his shirt and kicked his pants and boxers to the side.
“Good boy.” I ran my hand along his muscular chest, down his cut abs, and straight to the V leading to his cock. “Now sit.”
He obeyed, excitement in his eyes. “You’re driving me wild, baby. But again, you don’t have to do this.”
“Shh… let me begin.” I licked my lips, taunting him. “Lean back and get comfortable.”
He did as commanded, keeping his eyes on me. I slipped my heels off and pulled my dress up and over my head.
Will abruptly sat up and cupped my ass, his mouth on my pussy.
“No, no, no.” I giggled, pushing him back. “Patience is a virtue.”
He dropped his head back against the sofa, chest heaving from the zing of lust that had hit him, I assumed. I couldn’t help but giggle again.
Down on my knees, I took his stiff cock in my hand and his body trembled. My mind wasn’t fuzzy by any means. I knew what I was doing, and I wanted to pleasure Will. The deep desire to possess him with my mouth had controlled my every thought since we returned from our trip. My failures perpetually lurked in the dark corners of my brain.
I needed to face my fear and blow it out of the water.
I didn’t build up slowly, but I stroked him a few times, enjoying the feel of him, tracing my thumb over the head. My chest grew heavy, mouth watering with anticipation and fear. I pushed through it, taking Will into my mouth. His thighs quivered against my shoulders as he sucked in a breath.
Holding his cock with both hands, I took him in farther, tasting him. This time it didn’t bother me. I relaxed, closing my eyes, my tongue exploring him. I stroked his shaft down to his balls, turning myself on in the process.
I’m doing it!
The thrill of my almost success was squashed when I drew him in farther and tried to suck. My gag reflex hit, releasing unstoppable tears and panic. Why, why couldn’t I do this?
“Baby…enough.” Will reached for me but I shook my head, eyes closed so I didn’t see his disappointment. “Sweetheart, come here.”
The moment lost its luster and was ruined.
Will pull me up and cradle me in his arms. I didn’t fight him. I needed his comforting touch. Reverently, he caressed my body and kissed me with meaningful intent. There were no words. If I tried to apologize like last time, it might upset him. And that was the last thing I wanted to do.