I wanted the awkwardness around it to go away, but not at the cost of... Yeah, I wasn’t ready to give up the memory of Jax’s touch. His kisses. Grayson’s gaze on us. His groans. “No.”
“So it wasn’t a mistake. They’re big boys, they can deal with it. Theyarebig, aren’t they?”
My laugh was back. “I’ll never tell.”
“Yes you will.” Lyn kicked me under the table. “And that’s all the answer I need.”
Thank God for friends who got me. If only what came next, talking through things with Grayson and Jax, was going to be even a fraction as simple.
Chapter Four
Jax and Grayson returnedwith my bed strapped to the bed of Grayson’s truck, and the rest of my bedroom set underneath. Most of my furniture was going into storage or to my other best friend, Anne, since Lyn already had furniture here.
Seeing the guys bring my bed in summoned memories of the last thing we’d done on it, and a knot formed in my gut. Fortunately, the arrival of the pizza lady was the perfect distraction.
Lyn and I gathered sodas and stacks of plates from her upstairs kitchen. She always had a massive variety of drinks on hand, because she got a good deal buying them in bulk for the shop. I was grateful when she suggested we set it all up on the coffee table in the living room. I still needed to figure out simple things like could I make eye-contact with Grayson and Jax? The kitchen table would make that a more pressing concern than I was prepared to deal with.
When Lyn grabbed a small salad from the fridge, I frowned. “It’s moving day. Indulge.” I kept my tone light.
Lyn was gorgeously curvy, and every other month she started another diet to try to hide her amazing features. “Burning calories isn’t an excuse to consume more.”
“That’s exactly what it is.” I wished I could make her see what I did—that her intelligence and beauty didn’t need to bend to fit anyone else’s perspective. She was perfect as-is. I wouldn’t push the issue today, though.
Grayson joined us first, and then Jax, both of them grabbing a couple slices of pizza before settling on the couch next to each other.
I staked out one of the oversized beanbags, and Lyn perched on the edge of a chair. A heavy silence settled over the room as we gave our attention to our food.
“You ready for RinCon?” Lyn asked Grayson.
Thank God for her and small talk. RinCon was an international gaming competition put on by Rinslet. One of the largest gaming companies in the world, started by a couple of local guys.
Grayson was an exhibition gamer. He used to compete. It was how he’d met Jax, who worked in sales with Chase at Rinslet. Grayson had been thinking about stepping back from the competitions anyway, but dating Jax made the decision easier.Retiringkept Grayson from traveling so much, and helped them both avoid any conflict of interest. Now Grayson did most of his gaming online, and appeared at shows like this as part of the hype, to play against other top-tier gamers.
Grayson flexed his fingers and rolled his wrists. “As ready as I’ll ever be. I’m up against a newcomer from Korea this year, but I’ve got a good luck charm.”
Jax was good like that. The two of them together were perfect. I glanced up to see Grayson watching me with an unreadable expression, and heat flooded my cheeks. “You’ll do great,” I mumbled through a mouthful of pizza.