I blew out a breath and checked the time. My shift started in just over an hour, so with great difficulty, I took one last look at the siren in the water and turned for another ice-cold shower. Every fucking shower I’ve taken since she moved in, has been freezing cold. I needed to get to the kink club to burn off steam before I caved and pursued something more with the off-limits girl living next door.
Chapter Nine
“You’re crazy.” Paisley rolled her eyes and shook her head with disappointment. “I’m telling you. That man has the hots for you, and I know you have the hots for him. Why are you avoiding him?”
We were in the kitchen making dinner. Well, I was making dinner while Paisley watched. She would burn water if I let her near the stove. It was safer for me to cook, and in return, she’d clean up afterward.
“For the same reason he’s avoiding me, Pais.” I shrugged. “We agreed that we are wrong for each other. He doesn’t want a commitment, and I don’t want a man in a dangerous occupation. I can’t go through that again.”
“Lex, Sunset Falls, Georgia isn’t Nashville. What happened to your dad was horrible, I can’t imagine going through that, but anyone has a greater chance of dying in a car crash than being killed at their job.”
“I know that, but having a dangerous job makes those odds go up.”
“So, you want him. He wants you, and you’re going to let this chance slip through your fingers out of fear?”
I stayed silent for a moment because she was right. I was letting fear stand in my way of a potential relationship, but there was more to it than that. I wanted to focus on my studies, my career. Plus, I’d never had any relationship, let alone one with a man that made me tremble with some undeniable need to please him. He scared me senseless.
After dinner, we watched a movie enjoying our last two weeks before classes started because once they did, I’d be too busy for just hanging out and enjoying the new sense of freedom I felt.
“We should go to a nightclub this weekend,” Paisley said as she stole some popcorn from our shared bowl. “Dress up, go dancing. There’s one called Club Paradigm. It’s eighteen and up.”
“You think our sitter will let us go?” I rolled my eyes and jerked my head toward the backyard and the guesthouse outside. If Gabriel found out we were going, chances are he’d be furious. He didn’t seem like the type of guy to let shit go, and he was hell bent on us being safe.
“Who cares? If it’s eighteen and up, we won’t be breaking any laws. His rules were no breaking laws and being safe. We are going together, not alone, and we won’t be bringing anyone home with us. So, we aren’t breaking his rules to go to a club.
“I don’t know. I’d rather just tell him, listen to him preach and rant, and then go.”
“Trust me. It’s better to ask forgiveness than permission. Besides, if he’s not going to sweep you off your feet, then you need a distraction because you have been looking out the back windows and toward his house way too much.” Paisley grinned.
“Fine. If it will get you off my back about this, then we’ll go.”
We watched the rest of the movie, laughing at the ridiculousness of it and sighing at the sappy love ending. There’s nothing better than watching a chick flick with your best friend.
Living with her for the next four years was going to be the best of my life. I was sure of it.
After the movie ended, we went upstairs to get ready for bed. I laid in bed awake until I heard his bike pull up to the house just after midnight. It was crazy how much more I relaxed knowing he was home. Paisley didn’t know I did this every night. Lay there in the plush bed, a mountain of pillows behind me, the silence allowing my mind to wander and drift to the man that held my misplaced interest.
I listened for any sound of him. Part of me wished he’d come to my room and make me his. I fantasized about him breaking down my walls and me melting into his arms.
Thinking about him doing everything and anything he wanted to me made my pussy wet. I bit my lip as I slid my hand under the covers and into my panties. I was innocent of a man’s touch, but that didn’t mean I didn’t take care of my own needs when they came up. They’d been coming up a lot more often since moving in here and meeting Gabriel.
I pictured him coming up behind me in the kitchen, his body aligned with mine as he kissed my neck and slipped his hands around my waist. How would it feel to be pressed against his lean, muscular form—to have his lips on my skin—his taste on my lips? I bit my lip to keep from moaning out as my fingers brushed across my sensitive clit.
My breathing picked up and my body writhed between the sheets as I let the fantasy play out in my head. Gabriel would take control of my body and own my pleasure. I loved the idea of being helpless against his desires for me, submitting to his dominance. The idea of it caused a flood of arousal to soak my fingers.
“Gabriel,” I whispered as I shallowly thrusted two of my fingers inside my tight channel. I felt the rippling walls clamp down on my intruding digits, and it made me shiver with my need to come.
“Tell me what you need,” he’d growl into my ear, my hair gripped in his iron fist.
“You,” I thought, stroking my quivering clit again. I was so close to coming—right on the edge of it.
“You, what?” he would say, twisting my hair tighter and flicking my clit with his finger before thrusting them into me hard.
“You, Sir,” I’d cry out, and he’d turn me around, setting me on the counter before sliding his hard cock into me.
I came around my fingers. My body shook and shuddered as the waves of my self-induced orgasm rocked me to my core. Even after the intensity of the orgasm subsided, I stroked my slick pussy, enjoying the aftershocks that circuited through my body when my fingers brushed against the small bundle of nerves.
When my breathing slowed and the last of my orgasm faded; I brought my hand out from under the sheets. They were sticky and slick with my need, and I felt the moisture on my thighs from where I’d worked myself up so much that my panties were pointless.