Diamond
Icome back to the apartment a day later.
I had no idea when I agreed to meet Jesse and Dave for dinner that I’d end up playing hooky for the rest of the weekend. For what it’s worth, I didn’t plan on ditching all my responsibilities, but then Dave offered to show us his new place as we were leaving the restaurant, and going back to Silver Springs seemed a lot more appealing than facing Finn.
Especially after the, ahem, incident on the roof.
I had a great time in Silver Springs. I got to see Dave’s new condo, play board games with him and Jesse, and I even stopped by our old house to visit my little brother and Gaten. It sucked seeing the house where I grew up looking so different. Gaten remodeled the kitchen the way he’s always wanted—it’s a chef thing—and repainted the living room and bedrooms.
Seeing all the changes he’s made felt final. Like there was no hope for him and Dave anymore. But nothing compares to the hopelessness I felt when Gaten mentioned he’d been seeing someone. Jesse saw the look on my face when I heard the news and gave me a not-so-discreet nudge in the ribs with his elbow. And I’m glad he did. It reminded me of what truly matters.
My dads’ happiness.
It took me a moment to swallow the pill, but once I did, I was able to enjoy our time together, although most of it was tainted by the thought of Finn.
He was never far from my mind, no matter how hard I tried to focus on anything but. I haven’t heard a peep from him since I lied my ass off and told him I’d faked my orgasm. Wait, I take that back. He did send me one message after I shattered his ego.
One message, two words, zero context.
“Game On.”
That’s all the message said, but it was enough to make me regret running my mouth. I know better than to think that Finn won’t retaliate, which is why I’ve been holding my breath ever since I stepped foot inside the apartment.
I’m quick to drop my stuff in the guest room and check my phone. I have a message from Aveena informing me that she and Xavier are at a doctor’s appointment for the baby. I text her back, my mind swamped with questions.
I didn’t see Finn on my way in. He wasn’t in the living room, but then again, I made a beeline for my room as soon as I came in. He could very well be in the kitchen. Or he could be at the gym.
I listen in for noises in the apartment for a while.
Crickets.
I eventually decide to go take a shower before class, but I don’t bother locking the bathroom door since I’m home alone. My shower is long and filled with all sorts of depraved thoughts. It’s like my body’s been on overdrive since Finn fingered me to high heaven. He’s ignited something in me. Something that had been lying dormant for a long time, and now that it’s active? There’s no going back. I’m horny all the time. And I mean all the time.
Maybe I should just…
My hand slides across my stomach and between my legs before I can stop it. I chew on my bottom lip so hard I draw blood as I pinch my clit between two fingers, hating myself for the voice in my head.
You want it, then take it. Use me, Dia. You’re not mine? Fine. But I’m all fucking yours.
My circles quicken as the memory of Finn’s voice sends shivers throughout my entire body. I touch myself for a few minutes and loathe how different it feels when I do it. I don’t know what the fuck is so special about Finn’s fingers, but I sure wish I could uncover his secret.
Tell me you’re not wet for me. I recall the words he said to me, rubbing my clit even faster.
I don’t want him.
I don’t want him.
I don’t want—
“Finnn,” I let out a loud moan without realizing it, smacking my palm against the shower wall.
My eyes snap open at the realization…
I just moaned his name.
I. Just. Moaned. His. Name.
That’s when I hear him.