“Feelin’ Myself”
“I can’t talk right now. I’m doing Hot Girl Shit!” – Megan Thee Stallion
My date with Baby wentso differently than I thought it would go. The man who I wrongly accused of being a class clown was anything but. Okay, so he did pull a prank on me at the beginning of the date. But even that was a way of him testing me. There was a purpose to his madness. I assumed he mindlessly went around plotting and joking, when in actuality his pranks were well thought out plans that he executed flawlessly.
I was so impressed with his ability to read me. It seems he had been observing me all the years we had known each other. There I was thinking he didn’t even know I existed. It was evident by his choice of food, drinks and the way he handled me, Baby was a very doting and generous man. He took the time to learn what I liked and provided it for me without a second thought.
It touched my soul when he stripped me down to the surface and informed me he wanted to get to know Sharon. I was floored when he knew the difference between my biker persona, Obsession, and Sharon, the girl behind the wigs and makeup. I had never had a man ask me to remove my makeup so he could see the real me. If anyone else would have even hinted at removing my makeup during a date, he would have been ghosted so fast his head would have been spinning. Strangely enough, when Baby demanded it, I felt warm inside.
Between him and Matrix I didn’t know what was happening to me. Matrix made me feel loved and alive. He showed me things I had never seen before and helped me to live my dreams. Baby broke me down to my bare essence and made me fall in love with myself for once in my life. If I could bottle the formula for the perfect man, it would be the combination of the two. They were both pushing for exclusive relationships, but I had no idea if I could choose just one. I wanted them both. But was I being greedy? Would they even agree to it?
After a good night’s sleep, I woke feeling like a new woman. A proud woman. A woman on a mission. Between Matrix and Baby, a bitch was feeling like a million bucks. I hopped out of bed wearing a wife beater and boy shorts. I clicked on my music app on my phone. Pulling up my Megan Thee Stallion playlist, I started singing and dancing in the mirror doing the body ody challenge. If I hadn’t been half naked, I would have recorded it for Tik Tok™.
I was throwing my ass in a circle when there was a loud knock on the door. I did not feel like being bothered with anyone, so I called out to whoever was knocking.
“Come back later. I can’t talk right now. I’m doing hot girl shit!”
Laughter erupted outside of my door, causing me to pause in my silliness. I recognized the laugh of my homegirl, Mouse. I needed to talk with her about the auditions that were happening later that day, so I threw on a robe and answered the door. Mouse was smiling and holding a bag of takeout food in one hand and a gift basket in the other.
“Bitch, I know you are not in here dancing in the mirror.”
“How’d you know what I was doing?”
“Because I was doing hot girl shit earlier, only I had a toddler trying to emulate my moves.”
We both burst into laughter as we fell into dual body ody challenges. I had to give it to her. Mouse was one bad ass woman. She had been through a lot in the past couple of years, popped out a baby and still had a banging body. I couldn’t help but wonder if my curves would snatch back like hers did if I had a baby. Then I quickly sobered. I would have to be in a very committed relationship before any of that shit happened. Hell, I wasn’t even sure if I wanted kids.
After our ass shaking battle was over, I smiled at my old friend and wondered why she was visiting me at the compound. She never came to my place for anything. If she needed something, text was her friend. That’s when I noticed the items she had sat down on the table before we started dancing.
“So, Mouse, what’s up? I am surprised to see you at my doorstep.”
“Yeah, it has been a minute. Truthfully, I have never felt very welcomed here, so I avoided coming thru. However, since we are going to be working together, I thought I would come by to bury the hatchet. Try to figure out what went wrong with us so we can have a good working relationship. The last thing those girls we have coming in need to see is two women fighting.”
“That’s cool. I can’t really put my finger on the issue, but I am willing to wipe the slate clean and start over. That is, if you’re good with it.”
“That would be great. I can’t tell you how excited I am for us to work together. I know you will be doing the heavy lifting because of my other business and club stuff, but I promise not to leave you high and dry. I am going to be there as much as I possibly can, and the other instructors are there to support you as well. I need you to promise me that if you start feeling overwhelmed or underappreciated, that you will let me know.”
“I can do that. You know I love a challenge, and this is the opportunity of a lifetime. Mouse, I want you to know that I am very grateful that you would take a chance on me. I will do my best not to let you or the girls down.”
The look on her face told me she was very sincere, and she believed me when I told her I would do my best. She stepped a little closer and pulled me in to one of her patented hugs. One thing about Mouse, she was always very affectionate with everyone. Well, once she got to know you. She was like the mother hen of the club.
She took her role as First Lady to a whole other level. Most of the guys went to her if they needed an ear, and our prez, Ace, encouraged it. Ace trusted Mouse to be faithful. Plus, it was kind of sickening how their love permeated the room when they were together. One look could set flames to the room. The man was possessive, but he wasn’t overly jealous like some men in the MC. She waved her hand in my face to get my attention. It seems I may have drifted off into my own thoughts.
“Girl, what is up with you? I am standing less than a foot away from you and you couldn’t hear me. Let me guess, you are thinking about a man.”
“What makes you say that?”
I turned away so she couldn’t see me blushing. I sat on the loveseat and gestured for her to take a seat on the opposite chair.
“For one, you have this dreamy look in your eyes. Not to mention, I was asked to deliver this to you. It is from a very special admirer.”
She handed me the stash, and my eyes about bugged out of my head. I placed my goodies on the coffee table so I could read the attached note. A sweet smile fell across my lips as I read the words on the page. Meydad sent me breakfast and a gift basket full of my favorite spa items. Fuck, that man was trying his best to win me over, and it felt good.
Good morning Sharon,
I hope you slept well. I enjoyed our time together the other night. May this food serve as nourishment for your lovely body this morning. Please take the time to use the spa products in the basket for a relaxing bath. It has everything you will need to get your day started in the right direction. Good luck with the auditions today. I look forward to spending more time with you very soon.
Meydad