Alana
It had been almosttwo weeks since my first trip to see Dr. Kelly. She had called me back in for more tests a few days later, and now it was just a matter of waiting for the results. I’d kept busy at the shelter, and spending time with Lucia. She was proving herself to be a completely problem free houseguest and was really good company, especially as Alejandro was so busy with work.
I was reading by the pool when I got the call from Dr. Kelly telling me my results were in and asking if Alejandro and I could come in later that morning. I’d told her that of course I could and I was looking forward to seeing her. And then I’d put the phone down and almost thrown up with nerves and anxiety. If she needed to see me straight away, it couldn’t be good news, right? If everything was okay, she could have just put me out of my misery and told me over the phone. But maybe they gave all news face to face?
My fingers trembled as I picked my cell back up and dialed Alejandro.
‘Hey, princesa,’ he said, his voice low and gravelly today, and in any other circumstances, would have had me panting with longing.
‘Hey. So, Dr. Kelly called. She has my results, She’d like us to go in this morning if we can. Are you able to make it?’
‘Of course. I’ll move some things around.’
‘Thank you,’ I said, my voice wobbling.
‘Everything will be okay, princesa. No matter what.’
‘Okay,’ I whispered.
‘I’ll pick you up at eleven. Is that okay?’
‘Yes. I’ll let her know.’
‘Te quiero, Alana.’
‘Love you too, Alex.’
Alejandro squeezed my hand tightly in his as we sat in Dr. Kelly’s office and tried to digest what she had just told us. But, I was finding it difficult to focus on anything she said after hearing the wordsit will be very difficult for you to conceive naturally, Alana.
Alejandro asked lots of questions and Dr. Kelly explained all of our options and what fertility treatment would be available to us, but all I could think about were those words, and the fact that I may never be able to give my husband a baby. The heir that he so desperately wanted. The heir that his family needed. The only reason he had married me in the first place.
Half an hour later, we walked out of the doctor’s office and I was still in a daze.
Alejandro held onto my hand and I saw the way he kept looking at me, with his eyes full of concern and it only made me feel worse. This was my fault. My body was letting us down. Not his. Him worrying about me was just making me feel even more guilty.
‘Come on, let’s get home. We can do something nice together this afternoon? Maybe go for a hike? Or to a movie?’ he said as he guided me to the car.
‘No. You have meetings all day. You should go back to the hotel,’ I insisted.
‘Alana. I’m not going to work when you’re this upset.’
‘Aren’t you upset?’ I snapped at him.
He frowned at me. ‘Of course I am. But, we’ve only just found out about this, princess. I don’t want to start talking about our options right now, but we have plenty.’
‘But there’s no guarantee any of them will work,’ I sniffed.
‘Alana,’ he put an arm around my shoulder and kissed the top of my head. ‘There is no rush, princess. We don’t even need to think about any of that yet. Just let me take you home.’
‘No,’ I shook my head. ‘I need to go to the shelter anyway. We have a huge fundraising event I need to plan for.’
He looked at me, eyes still full of concern.
‘I want to go to work,’ I insisted. ‘It will be good for me to keep busy. You go back to the hotel, go to your meetings, and I’ll see you tonight.’
He frowned at me but then he nodded. He signaled Hugo over to him who had been waiting outside in his car. We always went everywhere with extra security lately.
‘Can you and Hank take Alana to the shelter?’