“What?” I inquire. He doesn’t say anything for a moment and I think maybe he’s drifted off to sleep until he speaks low again.
“Nothing sweetheart.” He hugs me close and I swear I hear him say thank you. My heart thumps and swells. Is this love or maybe strange feelings since it’s Charlie I gave my virginity to? I wouldn’t know having never done it before, but it feels sweet, sugary like candy, melty chocolate. I feel like I’m getting
super mushy and should be way more mature about the whole thing.
We’ve only been lying together for a few minutes when Charlie jumps up and looks down at me smiling.
“So, I know that just happened and it was wonderful, but I really want you to sing with me,” Charlie says. He doesn’t care that he’s naked as he goes over to the corner and grabs his guitar. I hadn’t even noticed he’d brought it with him, I’d been so shaken.
“Right now?” I giggle as I pull the sheets around me and sit up.
After they are gone I sit and look over some of the notes Charlie has written. He’s at the front locking the door.
“I want to run it through with you. See how it feels.” I say as I pick up a sheet.
“Okay, great,” his eyebrows go up as what I said sinks in. He rushes over and grabs the sheets from me. “Those aren’t ready for you yet. Here., I worked on something that I think will suit you a little better.”
I read the lyrics and wonder why he thinks I would be suited by it.
Ran from the life and the needle
Keep getting pulled back in
A friend says he’s in trouble
So, I start running again
The men chasing him are angry
There’s a lot of grit in his eyes
My bleeding heart pulled me down
And I might not make it alive
“Charlie, why would you think I would like this?” I ask genuinely confused.
“Because you told me to dig deep. Write about something meaningful and true. Maybe not in so many words,” he says.
“This is something that happened to you?”
“Yes,” he says looking down.
I wonder how much I don’t know about him.
“I would sing the verses.” He says moving forward to point. “You would sing the chorus. That’s the part I thought you’d like.”
I read on.
Loving a man with the wrong idea
Of what it means to be free is a shame
I can’t help the way I feel
His chains are going to drown me and I say
Bring on the water