“But I can’t,” she whispered, feeling her mind whirl with concerns, questions, and fears of the fact she had never had sex before and it was obvious these men had a lot of sex. They had to have because they were hardly doing anything to her and making her panties wet and her body pull toward them for more. How the hell did they do this? How did they make her want four men to take whatever they wanted from her? It could be a disaster. She didn’t even know if she could let them that close to her.
“You’re shaking, baby, talk to us,” Tazer said as he caressed her breast and then lower to her hip. He used his free hand to move her hair to the side more as he pressed kisses to her bare shoulder.
She felt sexy, desirable with her tank top lowered down her arms, the cleavage of her breasts exposed to all four men, and then surrounding her, wanting little ol’ her.
“I don’t think I can give you what you want.”
“Oh, I think you can. When you follow your heart, your body and let go, you let us in and it feels good, it feels right,” Parker said to her.
“Why do you want me? You can have any woman you want, whenever you want. Hell, Parker, I’ve seen you practically mauling a woman in a bar. I’ve seen Lynch too. I don’t want that. I don’t want to be your next conquest.” she said to them. She felt so badly and empty just thinking about not feeling them close. She liked them, lusted for them from afar for over a year. Suddenly, after what they shared tonight she knew she would be lonely and miserable without more of them. For crying out loud, she came in Tazer’s arms. He sucked on her breast in the back alley of Spencer’s.
“I’m not going to lie to you, Eliza Grace. We’ve all fucked around from time to time. Maybe even to try and get you out of our heads,” Parker said to her. Her eyes widened. Again, like this was her fault.
“I’m not blaming you,” he added quickly.
“Really? Because it sounded that way. Just like a few minutes ago when Tazer and Lynch indicated that them nearly screwing me against the wall in the back of the bar was my doing.”
“That’s not true,” Tazer said to her.
“Never,” Lynch added and she watched them, even Burker look her body over.
“You don’t even know how fucking gorgeous and sexy you are, do you, Eliza Grace?” Burker said to her. Her cheeks grew warm and she shyly looked away.
“Stop. Don’t say things you think I want to hear.”
Lynch cupped her cheeks, pulling her toward him as Tazer released her.
She stared up into Lynch’s dark blue, almost black eyes. He looked over her mouth, her nose, her eyes.
“You’re so damn sexy, so sweet, petite, and feminine, it drives each of us fucking crazy with need. You want the truth, no lies, no sugar coating it? I’ll tell you the truth. Every time I see you I think of all the ways I would claim you, fuck you, make love to you and make you mine. So when we saw that calendar, with that dress nearly to your pussy, it drove me fucking insane. I had to calm myself down and be rational even though my desire to have you, to make you my woman, makes me feel anything but rational. Stop fighting us and let us in. We’re never going to hurt you.”
Lynch covered her mouth and kissed her deeply. His words, the sincerity, and power in his eyes hit her heart, her soul and made her kiss him back and pour her desires into that kiss. His hands ran over her ass, over her thighs as his arms encased her body. When they finally parted lips she hugged him and he held her close. She never felt more protected and safe in her life.
“Come home with us,” Tazer said to her. Lynch turned her so she would have to look at Tazer, Burker and Parker. They all looked so incredibly sexy and aroused. She couldn’t believe she did that to them. She made four older, more experienced men wild with desire to make love to her and make her their woman.
Then she felt the tightness in her chest. As much as she knew she wanted them, she didn’t know if she could handle the intimacy. Four men, naked, touching her, stimulating her and having their way with her. Would it send her mind into the nightmares of her past? Of that night several college boys attempted to gang rape her? She wasn’t sure what to do. Their size, their capabilities, experience, once again came into play and she felt that panic sensation begin to form in her chest.
“Eliza Grace?” Tazer whispered and she looked at him with tears in her eyes.
“I can’t. I’m not ready.”
He looked disappointed but then he gave a soft smile. He reached out and caressed her cheek. “We’ve got all the time in the world. We’re not going anywhere.”
Lynch released her and she stepped closer to Tazer, reached up and placed her hand against his cheek. “I don’t know how long it will take. I c
an’t explain it now.”
He covered her hand with his. “Doesn’t matter. You’ll know when it’s right.”
“Plus we’ll help convince you that you’re safe with us and we won’t ever hurt you,” Burker added. She smiled at him.
“Want to go back inside?” Parker asked. She nodded her head.
“I need a second,” she said when they started to head inside. She ran her hands down her skirt, adjusting it, and then she readjusted her breasts in the small strapless bra she wore and then fixed the top. When she looked up, the four of them were watching her.
“What?” she asked as Tazer placed a hand behind her lower back and guided her through the back door Parker opened for them.
“Nothing. You’re perfect,” Tazer said.