“Jesus. I never thought you’d want…”
“I want everything from you, baby.”
He nodded vigorously. “I need you.”
“I know you do.” I pushed my fingers in deeper, riding them for a few more moments. Julian watched me, and he already looked blissed out. I couldn’t wait to lower myself onto his dick and to see his face as he came. He thought he was the one who was desperate, but he had no idea how much I needed this. How long had it been since I’d enjoyed myself this much?
I was the fun-loving one, the one who did whatever I wanted, but sometimes I wanted something I didn’t think I could have. I wanted to feel so deeply that it hurt as much as it felt good.
I pulled my fingers from my ass, grabbed the lube again, and squirted some right onto Julian’s cock.
He gasped.
“Cold?”
“Fuck yes.”
“It won’t be for long.” I used my hand to work him until I’d greased his cock thoroughly.
He fucked into my fist, and I could hardly breathe as I thought about how good it would feel for him to lose control and fuck up into me.
I shifted position, easing myself down, thankful that as much as I hated working out, I kept myself strong and ready for battle. I could hold myself like this, hovering over him, for ages.
I took his cock in my hand and brushed the slick tip of it over my hole. Julian sucked in his breath.
“Who’s in charge?” I asked as I lowered myself just a bit, letting the head of his cock push against me.
His mouth dropped open, and he stared.
“It doesn’t matter whose cock goes in whose ass. I’m controlling this.”
He nodded, mouth still slack, eyes huge. As I started to lower myself, he gasped and reached for me, grabbing at my arms when he couldn’t get to my hips. “Wait. What about a condom?”
“You’re safe with me. Don’t worry.” I started to lower myself onto him, biting my lip against the burn as his head pushed past the tight ring of muscle.
“What about you? You didn’t even ask me or—”
“You already know I like to take risks.”
“Not with this. You—” I lowered myself slowly, stopping after taking another inch or so. “Oh God, Lance, please. I need more.”
I was certain he would tell me if there was any reason for me to worry. He’d told me he had limited experience, and I couldn’t imagine he’d been reckless. I took more of him, letting him open me up. “Fuck, that feels so good.”
“It does?”
“Yes. I love the feeling of a cock up my ass. “
Something sparked in his eyes. He loved surrendering to me, but that look told me he wouldn’t mind changing that up occasionally. Neither would I. I would happily take Julian any way I could get him.
I rose back up, letting him almost slide from my ass. He reached for me then, a fierceness in his eyes I hadn’t seen before. He grabbed my hips and tried to shove them down. He couldn’t make me move, but I loved that he wanted to.
“Please!”
“I like when you beg me.”
“I need to know what it’s like. I need to be all the way inside you. You’re so hot, so tight.”
He was babbling, his words hardly intelligible. I loved that he was that far gone already, so I gave him what he wanted. I lowered myself, still moving slowly, still adjusting. It had been a long damn time since I’d let anyone fuck me. I liked it, but I needed to trust the other person. I rarely trusted the men I hooked up with. A lot of times, I didn’t even like them.
When I was fully seated, Julian’s cock buried deep inside me, I leaned over him and held him down again. “I decide how fast this goes.”
This time he didn’t give in. He fought my hold, snarling at me, working his hips, trying to drive himself farther into me.
“It’s not easy to let go, is it?”
He surged up. If I’d been less strong, he would’ve flipped us, and then he would’ve driven into me, splitting my body open. I considered letting him. It would feel so good, but that wasn’t what he needed. He needed somebody he could fight who wouldn’t let go, someone who could force this from him. I was happy to oblige.
I stopped holding back. I used all my strength to hold him down and started riding him, raising and lowering myself faster and harder. He squirmed, rotating his hips, trying everything to free himself.
“Stop fighting me.”
“No. Need this. Need to fuck you.”
“You need to take what I give you. You need to let me use you.”
He finally stopped struggling. “It’s… not easy.”
“Feels good, though, doesn’t it? It feels good to relax and let this happen, to have a hot, tight ass to slide down over your cock.”