He raised his brows, staring down at me, looking more dangerous than ever. “Who’s in charge here?”
I glared at him, defiance coursing through me. I didn’t want to give in easily. I didn’t let people tell me what to do. I liked being in charge, except…
Lance pinched my nipples between his fingers, twisting them, making me cry out. “Who’s in charge?”
I couldn’t catch my breath. It was too much and not enough. I was lost. I was scared and also the happiest I’d ever been.
He wrapped a hand around my cock, squeezing just enough to make it hurt, then he stroked me, and I lifted my hips, trying desperately to get more friction.
“I can keep this up for a very long time. When you challenge me, I can find patience.”
“You,” I gasped. “You’re in charge.”
“That’s right, baby, so don’t argue with me. I know what’s best for you.”
I wanted that. In a dark, secret part of my mind, I wanted someone who knew what was best for me, someone who could fix things, but that only happened in books. It wasn’t real.
Except right now… If I let myself forget everything but Lance and me in the bed, then maybe—just for a little while—it could be.
He pulled my legs down until my feet were flat against the mattress. Then he moved between them, teasing my cock by running a single finger up and down the length. He replaced it with his tongue, swiping it over me.
I was so close. I didn’t know if I could hold back. “Can’t… Need to come.”
“I’m not ready to let you,” he said as he took me in deep. My cock slid to the back of his throat, and I squeezed my hands into fists, stabbing my fingernails into my palms, fighting the urge to let go. I remembered watching him suck me in my fantasy. It was even better in real life.
A few seconds later, he pulled off. I whimpered. “I want…”
“You want me to suck you until you come down my throat? You want to fuck my mouth?”
I shook my head. “No. I want you to use me. I want you to take what you want.”
“Oh, I will. I definitely will, and that includes having a chance to swallow your load as you cry out, driving into my mouth. That’s not what I have planned for tonight, though. That’s for another day. Maybe one day when I fuck your mouth too, shoving my cock all the way in, blocking your throat, making you gag around me.”
Holy fuck.
“Look at me.”
I forced myself to open my eyes. Heat filled my face, but he was right. I did want that.
“You’d like that, wouldn’t you? You’d like to be used like that. You’d lose your mind if I did that while I sucked you too.”
“I don’t… know if I… could.”
“You can do anything I want. I believe in you.”
In that moment, I was sure he did. I didn’t know why, though. It wasn’t like I’d shown him any particular abilities except to confess a whole lot of embarrassing things and let him into the library.
He brushed his thumb across my cheek.
“Whatever you’re thinking, you’re wrong. You’re an incredible fucking fantasy come true.”
No way did this man fantasize about someone like me. This was just convenient for him. I was willing to let him take charge, and he liked that, but he’d never seek someone like me out.
“I mean it. You’re fucking perfect.”
“I—”
“I already told you not to argue with me. You want to come, don’t you?”
“Fuck yes.”
16
Lancelot
“Julian, you’re so beautiful like this.”
I reached up under the pillows and found the lube I’d stashed there after jerking off the night before, thinking of Julian telling me all the reasons he couldn’t stand me as I undressed him slowly.
I liked when he fought back. I liked when he got all persnickety. But I also liked Julian open and vulnerable and so damn willing.
Once I’d slicked up my fingers, I widened my legs and reached behind myself, groaning as I pushed them in. I was so ready to feel him inside me. So ready to know what it was like to feel him lose control and come in my ass.
“Wh-what are you doing?”
“Getting my ass ready for you to fuck me.”
“Really?”
“Yes, did you think I was kidding when I said I liked to be fucked?”
“No. I… I thought you wanted to be in control.”
“I will be, and eventually, I will fill you up too. There’s no way in hell I’d deny myself the pleasure of taking your ass and teaching you how good it can be, but right now, I can’t go that slow. I can’t take the time you deserve, so I’m going to ride you, and I’m going to control it. I’m going to tell you exactly what to do as I hold you down and use your cock for my pleasure.”