Then he leans in and gives me a slow, soft kiss, so different from anything I’ve experienced with him before, and I melt a little more. Before I can change my mind, I turn and head for my room.
But I stop at the door and turn back to him. “Thanks for an incredible night, Madden.”
He flashes his dimples. “You know where to find me if you want me to make it the best you’ve ever had.”
Laughing, I slip into my room and shut the door, then lean against it heavily, blowing out a breath. That was really damn close.
I rub my hand over my eyes, trying to process everything that’s happened in the last twenty-four hours.
This time last night, I’d barely become the last virgin standing. And now I’ve almost turned in my v-card more times than I can count.
Stripping out of my dress, I climb into the bed, exhausted in every way—mentally, physically, emotionally. I don’t even bother with washing off my makeup, that’s how crazy I feel right now. My mind is at war with my body.
But even that doesn’t fully explain how I feel. My mind and body are both at war with themselves, too. Torn between Tristan and Madden. I’ve never understood how a woman could be torn between two men. It seemed impossible. But what’s really impossible is figuring out which of them I want more.
Because if I make it through the rest of this crazy reality show with my virginity intact, I have to choose. I have to pick which man is my one true love.
Coming into the game, I never expected it to be so hard to choose. I never saw Tristan and Madden coming, though. And to complicate it even further, it’s not just a matter of picking which guy I like the best. To my complete surprise, I’m starting to feel things for both of them. Real things. True feelings.
They’re amazing men, each in their own way. I have no idea what to do. Part of me wants to give in and let them have their way with me. But I fight that part with everything I have in me—because I have to win. I just have to.
But if I have to choose between them at the very end? I don’t see how I can. Madden showed me tonight that he can be caring and sweet, even as he’s being over the top flirtatious. Then there’s Tristan. So full of passion. So intense. So kind and caring.
They both manage to make me feel better than I’ve ever felt in my life. I thought going on this date was going to help me figure things out, but now I’m only more confused than ever. One of them will have to go at the end. And just the thought of that has me feeling sick. I don’t want to let go of either Tristan or Madden.
Ironically, I think I’m going to end up totally screwed, even if I never get fucked.
The Biggest Licker Season Update
Chase: Hello and welcome to another installment of our analysis of Biggest Licker – the most popular reality show on TV. I’m your host, Chase Worthington.
Nadia: And I’m your co-host, Nadia Moore. We have a lot to cover today as we get ready for today’s televised episode of Biggest Licker.
Chase: Right! We have so much to cover. Like how Nadia and I are just fucking now.
Nadia: Riiight. Yes, way to spill the beans to the whole country, Chase. My friends don’t even know yet.
Chase: Well, I’m proud of it. I love smacking that ass as I pump you from the back and you make those moaning sounds.
Nadia: And I love how your cock stretches me open, but you don’t see me talking about it while we have jobs to do.
Chase: Right. The audience. Hey audience. Sorry about that! Just I can’t get my head around how such a hot woman like Nadia would have, you know, sex with me.
Nadia: Awww, okay I forgive you. But first, audience, Chase and I might be bumping uglies, but did you catch what Megan was doing with both Tristan and Madden?
Chase: There was a couple times there I thought wow they were about to go all the way. We were watching it at a bar and—
Nadia: Oooh, Chase, you can’t mention alcohol on television. We could get fined, babe.
Chase: Oops. Sorry. Well, we were watching all together I mean when Megan was getting eaten out by Tristan and I swear to God, I was thinking that she was going to go all the way.
Nadia: But she didn’t! Homegirl is holding out. That means there’s a very, very strong chance that she may make it to the end. And then she has to declare to the country who her one true love out of Madden and Tristan is.
Chase: They then get the title of Biggest Licker. But who do you think it could be?
Nadia: I’ll tell you this. No matter what the show’s people say about some places cameras not covering, don’t believe it. Cameras are everywhere. And from everything I’ve seen of the almost-sex, I think Madden has a pretty good shot of getting the One True Love rose at the end of the show.
Chase: I don’t know. I think Tristan probably has this locked down.