Always thinking about myself?
Leaving teaching to get into modeling full time? Not even thinking about the people who were relying on me when I began to split my time as an elementary school teacher and a model.
And then when a better offer came along, not even considering the implications to others when I moved into porn.
Maybe I deserved someone who used me as casually as Robert did. Maybe I never hit him, but I abused others with my lack of consideration just the same. I never thought about them. Only what was good for me.
That’s why when I finally found out about him, I never gave a second thought to thinking about his wife and child. I just drove.
Got out of there.
I could have gone to the police, maybe?
If not that, I could have tried to warn others. His wife had said there were other women, hadn't she?
And then in New York.
From the very first time Simon came into my life, I’ve thought about myself first and foremost.
Sure, hun, if you’re saying I had to think about the baby at the end, I’ll agree that I thought about the baby.
But there had to have been another way than asking Ethan to give up what he’s worked on for so long.
I just never bothered to see what it was.
To his credit, Ethan seems to keep going full speed ahead with the release.
Only this time, Conners Media, led by Simon has also stepped to the plate. They announced two days ago that they too would be releasing wearable technology designed to let the user experience porn through virtual reality. They call it Wicked Wear.
Ethan seems to not even care, if that’s the right word.
Maybe the plans are so fully committed that he has no option now but to see things through.
In the last week, there’s been a media blitz, including front page ads in the the New York Daily Journal, television spots, a marquee every hour at Madison Square Garden, skywriting, giveaways during lunchtime with Illicit Entertainment starlets, and a massive launch party in Times Square.
It’s the launch party that has the entire city, and possibly nation talking.
It’s being filmed live in Times Square and being carried by all the major networks.
The network morning TV show, Today USA is even carrying it live.
But that’s not why everyone is tuning in.
In perhaps the only nod to Simon, Ethan has challenged him to publicly put his product head to head against his.
He says that the entire nation should be allowed to decide for themselves who has the better technology.
Today USA is even planning on doing snap polls in the moment as people see the products matched up.
I’m a little unsure heading up to the launch date how they’re going to even do the matchup. I mean, are they going to put the glasses on people and ask which one makes them cum faster?
Seriously, if you’re laughing, so am I—but it’s a morbid laughter.
Because I know that with the code that Simon has, he’s had a week to tweak it and make it better. Whereas Ethan probably is looking to alter his software so as not to seem like a copycat product.
I don’t know if this is Ethan’s last ditch plan to bluff his way out of an impossible situation. To keep his head high after being stolen from and hurt by someone he let get too close to him.
All I know is that while I don’t want to watch, I’m probably going to end up tuning in like everyone in the country. If for nothing else than to pray for a miracle.