s thought were only for kissing me.
He can say he loves me all he wants to. His actions for the past five years have proven differently. The hot water relaxes my body but not my mind. I wish I could talk to my friends, but we aren’t allowed any phones, TV, or computers. They don’t want us leaking anything about the show to the public. It’s like being in a five-star prison. After my soak in the tub, I put on my comfy pajamas and twist my hair up in a knot on my head. I grab my notebook and go out on the balcony to work on a new song praying Jameson doesn’t come out here too. I know his room is next to mine, but thankfully he hasn’t bothered me yet.
I try to write but can’t. My mind keeps drifting back to that stupid kiss today. Stupid Jameson. This stupid show. I grip my pen in my hand nearly snapping it in half.
All the restless nights
Your love was my drug
You infected me
Injected me with your lies
Suicidal heart
Tell me another lie
You set me on fire and left me to burn
For you
I called out your name begging for rain
But you didn’t answer my call
Suicidal heart
Tell me another lie
I thought you’d always be by my side
You set me on fire and left me to burn
All the restless nights
Your looove was my drug
Oh you set me on fire and left me to burn
Oh you set me on fire and left me to burn
For you
All the lines you fed me were never true
You left me in the flames
Suicidal heart
Tell me another lie
I continue to burn and cry out your name
All the restless nights
You struck a match and held it to my heart leaving me black inside
I’d burn forever for you