I rip my mouth from his and slide down his body. “Livvie.” My fingers tug so hard on his pants and boxer briefs that I hear the material to one of them tear, and before they’re all the way to his ankles, I flatten my tongue and lick up from his heavy sac all the way up to the tip and then take him all in, sucking on the way down. “Fuck.” He pulses his hips but lets me continue. I pull him out with a pop and then fist him around the base and pump a couple of times, salivating when a bead of pearly white leaks out of the slit on the top of his cock.
I flick it with my tongue and slide it down until I reach the notch just below the head and flick that, too. “Jesus, baby.” He grabs my hair and tilts my head to the side just a little to get a better view. “Suck me, Livvie. Quit fuckin’ around.”
My lips form a triumphant smile before they part, and I take him as deep as I can. I love it when I drive him crazy, and especially right now when the cloud of doubt is constantly floating above my head. I know exactly how he likes it, so I continue to suck him hard and squeeze him tight while I bob up and down on his dick.
His thigh jerks involuntarily, and an uncontrolled rumble rolls out of his mouth as he fists my hair. “Okay, baby, come here.”
I shake my head as best as I can, my throat vibrating my attempt at telling him no verbally, and suck harder as I squeeze even tighter and increase my speed even more. “Goddammit, Livvie, fuck… fuck.”
My jaw hurts, but I keep at it, and the sting in my scalp from him tightening his fist causes a jolt of heat down my spine that settles low in my belly. He twitches in my mouth mere seconds before I taste him on my tongue.
He releases my hair, and before I can blink, I’m on my back, and his long fingers are inside me. My spine arches, and I moan at the beautiful intrusion. “I don’t come without you, Olive.” He drops his forehead to mine and circles my throbbing clit before he slides back inside. The ball of his hand provides the perfect friction as he finger fucks me with abandon. “Piss me off, Livvie,” he growls as he increases the speed and pressure. “All the years we’ve been together, I never come without you.”
My eyes snap to his, and though they’re sated, they’re also heated and not in a good way. Perfect, I made him mad. I’m supposed to be doing everything I can to make him happy and to stay, and here I am doing the opposite. “Jay.” I plead with him, for things I’m unsure of. “Jay!” I scream and cry and beg as he continues pleasuring me like only he can.
“Come for me, Livvie.”
Tears well in my eyes from all the emotions taking flight and crashing into each other, and at his words, I do exactly what he commands, absorbing and memorizing this moment so I can remember it forever.
After last night, after he cleaned me up, he held me until I fell asleep, but I woke up alone. I prayed he would change his mind. Really, truly prayed and hoped and wished he wouldn’t go through with it. And now, as I sit in my car in the parking lot and watch him walk into the hotel, and then hug a woman, I drive away knowing I’ve lost him forever.
2
Jay
All day when I’m at work, a knot settles deep in my gut until I can get my eyes on Livvie, and only when she smiles at me does it unravel. This morning’s been worse than most days because of how strange she’s been acting lately, so after I return from meeting Sylvia, the back of my neck tingles when I don’t see Livvie’s car in the garage. After what we went through, if I don’t know where she is, it fucks with my head. She didn’t call me to tell me she was leaving, so what the hell?
Rushing inside, I call out her name but come to a halt when I see a piece of paper on the kitchen island.
I’m sorry for whatever I did to make you fall out of love with me. I’ll be at my sister’s for a while, if you want to see Jaydon just text Ryan what time and he’ll bring him to you. I’m not ready to talk to you about this, so please just give me some space, and when I make a decision, I’ll contact you.
“What. The. Fuck?” I crumple the paper and drop it on the ground. “You’ve gotta be fucking kidding me!”
I don’t know what the hell she’s thinking, but no matter what, no matter how bad, her even attempting to fuckin’ leave me with a fuckin’ note is the biggest bunch of bull shit I’ve ever seen.
She has to know this shit wouldn’t fly with me, so I don’t even think before I’m in my car going to get her. When I speed to her sister and Ryan’s place, and Ryan opens the door before I even make my way to the porch, my hackles go up even further. “Move,” I bark and march up the steps, but instead of letting me in, he wedges his body through the frame and shakes his head at me. “She doesn’t want to talk to you.”
My chin dips to my chest, and I straighten my spine, so we’re eye level. “Don’t think I won’t take you out to get through that door to get to my fucking wife, Breaker. Move.”
“Nah, man. She’s a mess. How the fuck you could do that to her is beyond me, but until she’s ready to talk to you, she does not see you.”
My heart has taken on a thunderous rhythm, and I actually have to force air into my lungs. “I didn’t do shit to her.”
He crosses his arms and raises a brow. “You didn’t meet a woman behind the coffee shop and make plans to meet up at a hotel, then meet up at said hotel this morning and hug her?”
“How the fuck did she find out about that?”
His arms fall, and he takes a menacing step toward me, ready to throw down for his woman’s sister.
I put a hand on his chest and push him back. “It was a fucking party planner I met with. Do you have any idea how hard it is to pull off a surprise anniversary party for your wife who’s a professional wedding planner? Jesus Christ.” I drop my head and have dual feelings of relief that she’s here and safe, and rage that she’s here in the first place. “She seriously thought I was cheating on her?”
Ryan scrubs a hand down his face. “Yup.”
“Move.” I shoulder him out of the way and open the door, only to find the living room empty. “Olive! Get your ass in here right now.”
Ryan comes inside and stands next to me. “Jaydon and Olivia are in the back room.”
The murmur of female voices filters down the hallway, and I begin to lose patience. “You good to keep him for the day? Actually,” I continue before he can answer. “I’m gonna need you to keep him overnight.” I’ll need at least that much time to teach