“Shut up and fuck me.”
That makes him chuckle.
He slides his hand between my legs, finding the sweet spot that only he knows where it is.
I moan as his fingers move over my body, igniting me and making me want him to be his forever.
Our eyes meet as his cock nestles in between my legs.
He opens his mouth, and I’m afraid of what he might say. We both feel vulnerable right now. We both just showed we care about each other more than we have ever let on. And that scares the crap out of me, because if he doesn’t tell me he loves me, or at least what he is feeling is real, then I might explode in pain.
He hesitates, and it can’t be good, so I kiss him, and it takes away whatever he was about to say away.
His cock pushes inside me, and I arch my back, begging his body to go deeper inside mine. Our eyes meet together, as bodies entwine. Our eyes stay open, together, as we both come.
We stay together a long time, neither of us speaking or moving. Kade finally pulls out of me, does his pants up, and then helps me up from the booth.
We both have so many things to say, but neither of us says them. Instead, we walk to Kade’s car, and he drives us home with nothing but the radio to keep us company.
I try not to let my mind race, but it’s difficult. All I can think about is how much I care about him. How much I want this to be real.
I rest my head against the window and close my eyes. If I sleep, maybe in the morning I’ll have a different perspective on my life. Instead of the heartache, I feel at the thought of losing Kade.
The car eventually stops as I doze off to sleep. I feel myself being lifted into Kade’s arms, but my eyes are far too heavy to open. My head flops against his chest, and my breathing is heavy as Kade carries me inside and into my bed. He doesn’t bother undressing me; he pulls the covers over me as he sits on the edge of the bed.
I want him to climb in the bed next to me, but I know that would only make things worse. Our feelings are clouded enough.
Kade leans forward and kisses me softly on the lips. A perfect kiss to take with me as I fall asleep.
“I love you Larkyn,” Kade whispers, thinking I’m asleep. But I hear his words, or I dream them.
“But you can never be mine.”
16
Kade
How the fuck did I fall in love with Larkyn?
I have no idea, but it’s a problem. I’m breaking the one promise she swore she needed above everything else. I fell in love, and now I’m going to hurt her. And I’m pretty sure she is in love with me, or at least has feelings toward me too.
I need to talk to Larkyn. We need a new plan if we are going to survive these next several months without hurting each other. I just have no idea what the plan is.
“I made dinner for you,” Larkyn says, coming into my office and putting her arms around my chest like it’s the most natural thing to do.
Dinner would be the perfect time to talk to her. Tell her we need more boundaries. That she needs to start treating me like an ass too, because I’m falling far too hard for her.
“Sounds great, what did you make?”
She grins far too wickedly. “Your favorite.”
I raise an eyebrow as I follow Larkyn, who is basically dancing with giddy excitement, as she runs back to the kitchen.
I follow her at a slower pace, enjoying watching her show from behind.
And then I smell it. Garlic bread and marinara sauce.
I grin. “You remembered.”