“Have a good shower?” he asked from behind her. She wheeled around. “Holy... !”
“Sorry. Didn't mean to sneak up on you” His eyes were hooded as they drifted over her hair.
“No, it's fine. I, uh...” It was not fine. She was not fine. Especially as she looked him over.
Alex had on a pair of jeans that hung low on his h*ps and a black turtleneck sweater. His dark hair was brushed back and seemed a little damp. As he stood under the recessed lighting, he was so handsome, it was hard to take in his presence without blinking a lot. Worse, she had to force herself to forget she had a clear picture of his bare chest. And knew exactly what the skin across his stomach felt like.
“Ah, Libby left us something,” she said, turning to therefrigerator and thinking maybe she should get in it. The kitchen suddenly felt two degrees away from tropical.
She thought of his hand leading hers down his torso and on to his...
Make that volcanic.
“Are we going to eat in here?” he drawled.
She put the chicken on the counter and went back for the salad. “Absolutely. No reason to be formal.”
When she pivoted around, Alex was eyeing the swinging door as if waiting for someone to come through it. Someone he wasn't particularly fond of, going by his razor eyes.
“So, you looked surprised to see me this morning,” she said as she grabbed a plate and started cutting into the roast.
“Do you need some help?”
“Were you surprised?” It was perverse, but she wanted to hear him say it. She wanted the satisfaction of knowing she'd thrown him, even if it was just a little.
There was a pause. “Yeah. I was.”
She put the plate of chicken in the microwave and sent it on a merry-go-round ride. Then she took the salad over to the table, grabbed a bottle of white wine from the refrigerator and tried to remember where the napkins were.
Somewhere over to the left. About where Alex was standing with his cane resting on his thigh and his cast kicked out in front of him.
“Would you get the napkins? They're behind you. I think.” His eyes flipped to the door again and he smiled darkly. “My pleasure.”
“Why do you keep looking over there?”
But he was bent down, opening drawers, and obviously didn't hear her.
Maybe it was the dog. Ernest could be a lot to handle, and for a man with a cast, an eighty-pound canine flying across a room was a dangerous thing.
“You don't need to worry about him,” she said. “He's staying upstairs.”
Alex looked over his shoulder. “Oh, really.”
“He wasn't feeling well.”
“Poor baby,” he murmured. “So it's just you and me for dinner?”
She nodded. “Don't feel bad. I gave him a lot of attention before you came.”
Alex frowned, a dark emotion settling into his eyes. “I'm sure you did,” he said with an edge.
As Alex grabbed two napkins, he tried not to imagine the kind of “extra attention” she'd given O'Banyon.
“You don't think you love him or something, do you?” he blurted out.
Oh, shut up, Moorehouse.
Cass frowned and then laughed a little. “I adore him. Although he can be a lot to handle...you know, always all over me.”
Terrific. Like he needed to know O'Banyon was a hungry lover. With stamina.
God, maybe he should just leave. Before he found out how big the man's
“Would you like some wine?” she asked.
No, actually, he'd like a concussion. At least that way he'd stop talking. And thinking.
And looking.
Cass was sexy as hell tonight. Black leggings and a loose turtleneck that hung past her hips. Her red hair was down and curlier than he'd ever seen it, as if she'd let it drynaturally or hadn't brushed it out. He wanted to sink his hands into the thick waves and angle her head back and kiss her until they both went weak.
“Alex?”
“Yeah?”
“Wine?”
“Sure. I'll get the glasses. And the silver.”
The microwave dinged. She took the plate out with a potholder and carried it over to the table while he got the knives and forks.
Before they sat down, he went and put his wash in the dryer, peeling the nylon sweats away so they could air dry.
When he came back in, she was at the table, pouring the chardonnay. She looked tired.
“What time did you get to the house this morning?” he asked as he sat down. They traded bowls and plates until they'd served themselves.
“I don't remember.”
“I woke up early. You were already there.”
“Don't worry, you're not paying me by the hour,” she chided gently, pushing her food around.
He finished what was on his plate. Went back for seconds. Was halfway through them when he realized she'd barely taken a bite. He lowered his fork.
“What's wrong?” he asked, nodding to her food. She shrugged. “Nothing.”
“Why aren't you eating?”
Cassandra shook her head and went back to shifting lettuce leaves around.
Then she murmured, “You know, I'm thinking of selling Reese's penthouse.”
“The one in Manhattan?”
When she nodded, he thought that was a weird way of referring to the place, considering it was her home, too. “Where will you go?”
“I want something smaller. It's not that I need the money. I just...” She took a sip from her wineglass and pushed her plate away. “Do you ever...get lonely?”
He stiffened and said the only thing that occurred to him. “I want you to eat more”
She had another small drink. “Yeah, that's probably a silly question, isn't it? You aren't the type who needs other people.”
Alex jabbed at her plate with his fork. “You worked hard today. You need to eat”
If they kept this up, he thought, they would probably finish the conversations by themselves. Maybe move on to two new ones.
There was a noise from upstairs.
“Excuse me, I better go check on him.” Cass got up and went to the back stairwell.
Alex frowned, wondering why she and O'Banyon weren't staying in the guest rooms in the front of the house.
“Oh, there you are,” she said, leaning up against the banister. “You okay, Ernest?”
Ernest?
She patted her thighs. “You want to go out?”
There was a soft padding noise and the jingle of a collar, then the golden retriever came into the kitchen looking sleepy. He wagged at Alex, but went straight for the back door as Cass held it open.
“Cassandra.”
“Hmm?” She shut the thing and came back to the table. “Who else is in this house right now?”
She tilted her head to the side. “No one. Libby went to her brother's. Why?”
Alex wiped his mouth with his napkin and eased back in the chair.
Idiot.
Jealous idiot.
Although mistaking O'Banyon for a dog did make some sense.
As she looked at him, he took a deep breath. “Tell you what. If you eat, I'll try to...talk”
Her luminous green stare became rapt. “So you do get lonely?”
“Pick up that fork.”
When she started eating, he took a drink and cleared his throat.
“No, 1 don't get lonely.” He paused. “I, ah...I don't get along with people that well.”
Her eyes widened as if she were surprised that he'd elaborated.
Well, that made two of them.
“You don't get along...?” she prompted softly.
He shook his head. “Never really have. I mean, I'm great with them in a competitive environment. Otherwise, they make me...nervous.” When she stared at him, nearly openmouthed, he bristled. “What?”
“Sorry. It's hard to imagine you scared of anything. Or anybody.”
“I did not say scared.”
Was that a smirk? He couldn't tell because she'd covered her lips with her wineglass.
“So why do they make you anxious?” she asked. “How about some more stuffing?”
“I don't—”
“Yeah, I don't feel like saying much more, either.” She dug that serving spoon so far into the chicken, he could have sworn it came out the other side.
God, he hoped she got full quickly.
As Cass lifted her fork, she cocked her eyebrow. She had to keep Alex talking. Learning something, anything, about the man was unexpected. To have him admit to a weakness of sorts was extraordinary.
He took a long drink from his wineglass. “I never know what to say. In social situations. I mean, all that small talk? My mind just shuts down. That's one of the things I love about being on the ocean. No chatting. Plus every time I'm on land, people look at me like I'm some kind of god and it's just too weird.”
His hand came up and pulled at the collar of his turtleneck. Good Lord. Alex Moorehouse was shy.
It was like finding out the earth wasn't round. She had to recalibrate everything she knew.
He was still hard as nails, radiating a kind of male power that was inherently sensual and somewhat dangerous. But the idea that he had a vulnerability made him appealing as well as sexy.
When he shifted in his seat, she realized she was staring. Seriously staring.
She looked down at her plate.
“Reese and I got along,” he murmured, “because he understood how 1 am. He liked all the attention. I couldn't stand the reporters, the fans. The parties. We worked. Together... we worked.”
Cass felt an odd stirring in her chest. The parties.
She'd been well aware of how much Reese had liked the parties.
That was how she'd first learned for sure that he was cheating. He'd called her from one in Sydney, Australia. She'd heard the chatting and the music in the background and he'd reassured her it was just another celebration after a successful race. Right after they'd said goodbye and hung up, her phone had rung again. She'd answered it, and before she got to hello, she'd heard him whisper huskily, Meet me upstairs in ten minutes. You know my room. Then the phone had gone dead.
He'd never realized he'd hit Redial instead of whatever number he'd programmed into his cell.
Right after the incident, she'd thought about confronting him, and had agonized over it. But in the end she'd let it go. The status quo had somehow seemed more important than her anger.
Tonight, though, she wished she had put it all out in the open. Preserving the peace and the stability of her life had seemed so important back then. Except now, after the months of chaos following his death, she wondered why she'd protected the lie. An illusion of calm was in fact no peace at all.
The sound of wine clucking into a glass brought her back to the present. Alex put the bottle down and stared at what he had poured.
“You must miss him,” she said.
Alex rubbed his eyes. “Yeah. I do. He was my partner and my friend”
“I thought you would come to the funeral. When you didn't, that's how I knew you were really injured.” “I just couldn't be there. I heard it was a beautiful service.”
“It was. He would have liked it. All the people. The speeches. He was loved by so many. I can't tell you the number of letters I got from all over the world. He seemed to have friends everywhere.”
There was a long silence. Then Alex asked, “How are you getting along without him?”
Cass pushed a piece of chicken around her plate. “Okay. The adjustment is slow.”
Alex looked at her strangely.
“Is that the wrong answer?” she murmured.
“No” His navy blue eyes narrowed and he considered her with the full force of his intellect. Which made her feel like she was under a spotlight. “I guess I just expected something different.”