Fortunately, he took the initiative. He walked toward me slowly. He reached out and braced me by the arms, and smiled like everything was fine. Our breath lingered, faces mere inches apart.
His kiss was soft and comforting. I could feel his hunger beneath it, begging to break free, but the kiss itself was the barest brushing of his lips against mine. My body came alive in that quick second, desperate to feel more. But he pulled away.
“Let’s go into the bedroom.”
He took me by the hand and led me into my room. I was buzzing with anticipation as he closed the door and turned on the bedside light. Somehow he looked even sexier in the warm glow of the lamp, shadows playing across the chiseled planes of his face.I know he said I’m the star of my channel,I thought,but I don’t know how anyone could watch a video and not be totally enamored by him.
I grabbed the remote and started to press theplaybutton, but I glanced at Kai first. He nodded. It was now recording, but only to my computer. It wasn’t live; I would get to edit it later if I wanted.
“Lay down,” he said, putting a hand on my back and pushing me toward the bed. “On your belly.”
“Oh?” I said while doing as he commanded. “I’ll be honest, this isn’t what I expected…”
“You need to relax first.” He climbed up on the bed above me, straddling me on his knees. “Close your eyes.”
I started to protest that I was already relaxed, that everything was great and I was only a little nervous, but then his thumbs dug into my shoulder blades. I let out a soft moan as he began massaging them in a circle, tenderizing the tense muscles of my back.
“Do that,” I mumbled. “Do more of that. Lots of it.”
He rumbled with laughter. “I thought you’d feel that way. Wow, you’re tense.” He grunted. “I like your art.”
“The painting?”
“Yeah. Did you paint it yourself?”
I snorted. “No. I’m not that talented. I saw it at an art show when I was in community college. Cost me a hundred bucks, which I didnothave back then. But it… called to me, I guess. People say that about art, and it always sounds pretentious, but I understood it when I saw that.” I craned my neck to look up at the print. “There’s something about the colors that gives me hope. It makes me feel like I have a future that’s bright and colorful.”
Kai dug into my shoulders with more force. “I can respect that. We all need a little hope.”
“Jesus, you should put this down on your profile,” I said while he worked. “Gives the best massages in the world.”
“Less talking, more relaxing,” he replied.
My body slowly melted under his skillful touch. Kai moved down my spine to my lower back, spent a while massaging out the knots there, and then worked his way back up. He stretched out one of my arms and dug his fingers into the flesh of my upper arm, forearm, and hand. He twisted each of my fingers and pulled on them gently. I felt the stress of my life disappear like someone was using a magic eraser on it.
When he pulled my shirt over my head and unbuttoned my bra, I obeyed without thought. The massage was even better when his fingers were working on my bare skin without anything in between. I was totally relaxed underneath him, without any of the first-time jitters I usually had with a guy.
“I’m going to remove your jeans now,” he purred into my ear.
I was too comfortable to speak words, so I nodded into my comforter. His hands slid around my hips to unzip my jeans, then he slid them over my legs and off my feet. There was a silent moment where I felt his eyes on me, appreciating how I looked in nothing but panties. Then his hands gripped my ankles and slowly slid over my skin, up my calves and across the backs of my thighs.
Then he dug into the orbs of my ass. It wasn’t sexual. It was only part of the experience. Pushing and pulling and kneading the stress out of me, the same as if it were my shoulders. My breaths became longer, and I felt my heart rate slow. I had never been as comfortable with a man as I was with Kai in that moment, laying on my bed while his thumbs dug circles into my muscle.
When he pulled my panties aside, it felt like the natural progression of the massage. His palms gripped my inner thighs powerfully, working their way up. A jolt of electric energy pulsed through my body as his fingers finally touched me. Sliding up and down my pussy, which was drenched by this point. The pleasure was deep and natural, only a step up from the bliss of the massage.
“Shh,” he whispered, planting a soft kiss between my shoulder blades. “Just relax.”
I couldn’t get any more relaxed if I was dead.
One hand spread apart my pussy lips while the other pressed against my lower back, pinning me down. A gentle reminder that I was totally, completely under his control. He massaged my outer lips, first in a circle, then up and down, pushing deeper inside of me with every second. And when two fingers curled up into me,reallyinto me, it was everything I didn’t realize I needed.
A moan escaped my throat, and he let out a soft grunt in response. Like he was enjoying this every bit as much as I was, if that were even possible. His two fingers corkscrewed inside of me, twisting and rubbing every inch of my inner walls. I started pushing my hips back to take more of him, but Kai responded by leaning a little more of his weight onto the palm that was holding me down.
The way he took control like that allowed me to let go. My mind was free of thought, free of worry, as he began fingering me more thoroughly. I let out tiny little whimpers as the pleasure pulsed through my body along with his motions. It was everything I had ever wanted, and simultaneously not enough. I had never experienced anything like that sensation before.
And then he was leaning forward, laying across my back with his breath tickling my neck. I didn’t remember him taking his shirt off, but the bare skin of his chest was now touching my back, warming and smothering me with his body. I moaned louder as he sighed in my ear and finger-fucked me, slowly like there was no hurry. Like the two of us had all the time in the world.
“Ohh Kai,” I finally breathed as the ecstasy intensified. If he sped up, I would come within seconds, but he continued his steady, unhurried pace.