"What do you hate about him most?" I increase the speed of the vibrator.
She whimpers, then grits out, "He tries to control me, Sir."
I drop my pants, pushing my throbbing erection against her thigh. I kiss the bottom of her spine, making my way up until I get to her collar, stating, "So we're here again. Why did you give me the authority to fully control you, pet?"
She blinks hard but can't stop a few tears from rolling down her cheeks. Her eyes meet mine in the mirror.
I smack her ass with my palm, barking out, "Eyes on you, not me. Now thank me!"
Her eyes dart back, and she croaks out, "Thank you, Sir."
I pick up the leash and graze it across her breasts, thrusting my finger inside her, murmuring in her ear, "I can smell your sweet scent, pet." I flick my tongue across her lobe and warn, "We can do this all night until your skin's bruised and juices pool at your feet. It's your choice."
She squeezes her eyes shut and more tears fall.
"Why did you give me control?" I repeat, curling my finger inside her.
She moans, and tremors race through her frame.
"You don't have permission to come, pet," I remind her.
Sweat pops out, glistening all over her body. Her chest heaves, taking in short bursts of air.
"Should I get another Dom in here?" I threaten.
Her eyes meet mine. "No! Please!"
"Why not?"
"Ri—Sir! Please! No one else!" she cries out.
"Why did you give me control, Blakely," I shout, inhaling her driftwood and sea salt scent mixed with her arousal, feeling a craziness begin to unravel my discipline.
Tears fall everywhere. She confesses, blurting out, "Because I've always wanted you to love me!"
I freeze, not sure what I thought she'd admit but not expecting her to say that.
She shuts her eyes, sobbing, her body convulsing, maybe from an orgasm or perhaps just from her anguish of what she admitted.
And for the first time in a session, I'm too shocked to know what to do next.
19
Blakely
I'm mortified about what I admitted to Riggs. Until it came out of my mouth, I didn't even know what I was hiding.
Why did I tell him that?
I should have lied.
Why?
He's going to hold it over my head. I know it. I've learned enough about him over the last two weeks to understand he'll take anything he can and use it against me when it suits him.
Is it even true?
I thought I agreed to all this to escape my father's grasp. But I can't lie to myself anymore. It was a convenient excuse for me to be with Riggs.