Be fearless in the pursuit of what sets your soul on fire.
What a fucking joke. Mylifeis a fucking joke. Everything I’ve done? For what? For this? To be cheated on by my husband? Humiliated?
Yolanda already sold her stories. Connor’s indiscretion is plastered on every major entertainment site. The videos are posted everywhere. I had to uninstall my social accounts. Too unbearable to read the comments about my cheating husband’s cock.
I’ll never, ever be able to show my face again. Neither will Connor. If he thinks Ty’s meltdown killed LTZ, well, he’s in for a rude awakening. Cheating on America’s sweetheart won’t win you any fans, that much I know.
“Can you please just leave, Connor?” My voice is stone cold. Definitive.
He moves toward me, I feel him though I refuse to look at him. Keeping my head down and eyes averted, I hold my hand up. “Don’t come any closer, I mean it.”
“What about the boys, Mae?” he pleads. “Don’t take them away from me.”
I whirl around and charge him. He stands there like a marble statue while I pound on his chest. “Why would you do this? Why? How could you hurt me like this?” I know I’m out of control. I can’t stop myself, which makes me furious. Decisively, I scream at the top of my lungs, “Get thefuckout of this house.”
Connor’s wracking sobs fill the room, but he doesn’t say another word. He just…leaves. Thunders down the stairs. The front door opens. Slams shut. Moments later, I hear the Range Rover peel out of the driveway.
That’s when I start to panic.
I’m alone here in Seattle. I have no infrastructure. No support. Connor’s family isn’t an option, obviously. I’ve got to get out of here. It’s nearly seven in the morning. If they aren’t there already, there will be news vans lining the street in moments.
I’ve got to pull my shit together and get out of here safely. The boys aren’t awake yet, so I hurriedly pack a couple of suitcases. Next, I tiptoe into the nursery and throw some of the boys’ things in a duffle bag. Torin wakes up, I pluck him and bring him into the living room where I call Kris.
“Did you see the headlines?” Torin sits in my lap when Kris answers.
I’ve clearly woken her up. She sounds exhausted. “No, what’s going on?”
“Connor fucked Yolanda. Multiple times. Videos are posted everywhere. I kicked him out.” I cannot believe the words are leaving my lips. They feel false. This entire situation is amiss. Except, I saw what I saw. The man in the videos is my husband. The woman is Yolanda. I watched his cock disappear into her mouth. I watched his mouth on her pussy.
My stomach lurches. My heart seizes. It’s too much for any wife to see.
I’m going to be sick.
Kris is awake now. “What the fuck are you talking about? I don’t believe that for a second.”
“Just go to any gossip site. Any news site. It’s all there for anyone to see.” I dig the heel of my hand into my forehead. Willing the images to magically erase themselves from my mind.
The phone goes silent except for the sound of Kris tapping on her phone. I hear her audible gasps. “What are these videos?”
“Sex tapes. I’m chartering a plane. Me and the boys are moving back to LA. Can we stay with you until I figure out where to live?”
“Of course.” Kris moves into fix-it mode. “Give me a couple hours and I’ll call you back. I’ll get Allison on it immediately.”
Torin is quiet in my arms. He looks up at me and giggles, oblivious his family has been torn apart. My God, he and Tristan are so handsome. They look exactly like their father. I set him down and he toddles behind me as I return to the nursery to get Tristan up. Methodically, I go about the morning tasks, which take twice as long without Connor. By some miracle, the boys are subdued this morning. Unquestionably, the vibes in the house are affecting them.
At least mothering allows me to forget what I saw for an hour or two. My phone pings. The sound gives me a visceral reaction. I’m scared shitless to see who it’s from. I can’t bear to see another video of Connor with that cunt. It will slice me in two. Well, four. Or six. I’m already in tatters.
Connor:Barry’s sending three security detail for you and the boys. They’ll be there at ten.
Ronni:Thank you.
Connor:I loveyou,Mae. Please, let’s talk. I don’t know what’s happening.
Ronni:You gave up that right when you put your dick in her.
I shut off my phone. I’m not about to get in a text war with Connor about something I could clearly see plain as day. He made a choice. I won’t be with a man who cheats. Period. End of story. Even if my heart never recovers, it’s a hard no for me.
I give the boys baths and dress them. Put them in the playpen with their blocks while I speedily wash up and get dressed in yoga pants and a sweatshirt. I grab a baseball cap and tuck my hair under it, ready to leave at a moment’s notice. I don’t want to be recognized until I can get somewhere safe.