He rotated me sideways so I could see Nicky beyond the tree trunks. Nicky wasn’t looking at us, but I never doubted he was aware of everything Cesare and I were doing.
The thought of Nicky knowing how filthy and animalistic I was got me all hot and bothered. I shoved back against Cesare and felt him getting hard against my ass, but neither of us took it any farther.
I didn’t want to do it in front of Nicky—not like that—not after what he said about how he felt about me. It wasn’t his fault he was born on the street with no family. It wasn’t his fault he didn’t stand a chance to offer himself as one of my suitors like these other men.
I couldn’t shove it in his face like that, not after the way he got hurt protecting me. That would be inhuman.
I still wasn’t sure if I should tell Leo and have Leo replace Nicky as my bodyguard. That would be the kindest thing to do for Nicky, but Leo thought the sun rose and set on Nicky. Leo didn’t want anyone else guarding me, and now I understood why.
Cesare let go of me and turned me to face him. I couldn’t see his features in the darkness. The light from the estate shone around his hair and shoulders in an unearthly halo.
He looked so mysterious and haunted in the shadows that my heart skipped a beat. He bent down and kissed me with his whole mouth open. Our tongues met, and my breath quickened with excitement. Was he really going to go through with it? Was he really going to take me right now with Nicky watching?
My body burst into full-blown desire, but Cesare pulled away without even touching me. He glanced behind him toward where Nicky stood. Talking about Leo watching us or the security guards watching us was one thing. Actually doing it right in front of Nicky was taking that game too far.
We strolled back to the house, and Nicky dropped a few dozen yards farther behind us. I took the opportunity to broach another subject that had been on my mind for a long time now.
“Have you ever had a threesome with two other women?”
Cesare jolted, and his jaw dropped staring down at me. “Where the hell did that come from?”
I blushed and tried to look away, but his eyes held me captive. “I was just wondering… since I’m a newbie with no experience.”
“Why do you ask about that? You don’t want to know all the crazy, stupid things I did in my misspent youth.”
I laughed. “I definitely do. I want to live through you since I don’t have any crazy, stupid experiences of my own.”
He chuckled. Was he blushing? I couldn’t tell in the dim light. “You promise you won’t get jealous or anything?”
“Of course not. It’s… exciting to think about.”
He stopped and pulled me closer. “Does it excite you thinking about stuff like that?”
I nodded, too breathless to answer.
“All right. Yes, I have.”
“What was it like?”
He laughed again. Now I knew he was blushing. “It was really hot. Two girls together is really hot.”
The blood rushed to my cheeks, not from embarrassment but from excitement. We were really talking about this. “Have you ever been with a girl at the same time as another guy?”
He shrugged. “I might have been.” Then he laughed.
“Was that hot too, or was it just weird?”
“It was hot too.” He studied me. “Why are you asking me about this?”
“I’m just wondering.”
“It’s always hot watching a girl getting fucked, even if it’s by another guy.”
“So…” I glanced over my shoulder. Nicky was far enough behind us that I hoped he couldn’t overhear us. “So when you talk about someone watching us…”
“You said it turns you on.”
“It does,” I murmured. “A lot.”