"Oh, here she is. Sorry Sir, but I can't let you back there." I become even more aggravated.
"What part of the hospital is she in!" I demand. She doesn't immediately respond, so I grab the computer screen turning it to myself as I quickly scan the screen. She yanks the screen back to herself.
"Sir, do I need to call security?" She asks as I start running away from the desk, searching for room 709A.
I round the corner of a long hallway with light brown closed double doors at the end. Just as I'm approaching them, someone is coming out, so I slide by unnoticed.
"Sir, can I help you. Did we buzz you back?" The nurse at the station looks confused as I walk right past her, searching for the room number.
After a couple more turns, I find the door, busting through it like it's not even there. Her face turns into pure shock, and It takes me all but two steps to reach her bed. Her hair is piled on top of her head, her hospital gown is the ugliest shade of green I think I've ever seen. Her eyes glass over as she looks at me.
"Judson, what? I mean, how did you…" I silence her with a long solid kiss while grabbing her hand.
"I love you," I whisper as I pull away from her lips but linger close enough to kiss her again.
Her eyes shift from the bed up into mine.
"I love you. I'm sorry, I never ordered that Paternity test. I knew he was mine the second I laid eyes on him. I just knew." I ramble as she stares at me.
"You love me?" She asks, taking a deep breath.
"I never stopped loving you. I knew I loved you the first time I saw you in Wilmington."
"Love at first sight, the Judson Banks. Never." She says sarcastically and pushes my shoulder playfully.
"I never meant to be so selfish. I was so distracted with Ryan, and the more I thought about him, the more I worried that I would lose you.
Just like I lost mom, and I didn't think I could handle it again." She glances to the wall and back to me, uncertainty written all over her face.
"I need you, Blake, and I need Jacob. He's our son, and I want to be his dad."
She tears up and pulls me into a hug.
"You don't know how much I needed to hear you say that."
"Probably about as much as I needed to say it."
The doctor comes in confirming the surgery and everything for in the morning. Blake looks hopeful about this procedure, and it is the first time I've seen her like this since the accident. I have seen her frustrated and upset about it, but now it's like she has come to terms with it.
"When did you decide to see a specialist?" I ask.
"When I found out I was pregnant." She sighs, laying back into the raised hospital bed, "I thought I would at least try. I didn't know if you would want this or if I was even coming back to Savannah. If I was going to be a single mom, I needed to try to have two functioning hands. If it doesn't work, I won't be upset, but I need to try for JC." She explains.
I sit back in my chair, attempting to manage my thoughts. I think about how strong she is. How she had to give birth without me. I think about how neglected they both must feel. How I should've tried harder, hunted her down, anything other than those emails. I should've known Ryan had gotten to her when she didn't respond. Our bond was stronger than that, and I should've known something was wrong.
"Where is JC?" I ask, changing the subject.
"With my mom, they got a hotel. It was getting late, so she left to put him to bed."
I lace my fingers with hers, and she doesn't pull away. I decide that is enough for me tonight. I have hope, hope that for once in this lifetime, I am going to get the girl. My girl.
CHAPTER 50
BLAKELY
I awake the next morning, definite that it was all a dream.
It wasn't. Judson is here. His head laid subtly on the bed near my hip, his hair disheveled and messy. I adjust myself in the bed, making sure my arm is available for the nurse who is here to take my blood pressure. I whisper to her, trying not to wake Judson. She assures me the anesthesiologist will be in soon to talk and closes the door on her way out. I glance out the window, noticing that it is still dark.