How am I going to just up and leave this world I inhibit behind? As much as I hate to admit it, what happens when I’m with Erica at some point in the future and I find out about some piece of shit guy and rage takes over, my need to end the world of his kind too great?
Even worse, what if I get caught? What if it happens when I have a family, leaving them with nothing?
But I won’t get caught because I’m careful, and it’s not just hubris talking.
I even remembered to call the tow truck as soon as I left, knowing that Detective Fields would follow me, which he did.
Allen’s car is no longer outside, which tells me my call was answered. It was an easy tow, especially considering I made sure when he parked that a third of his vehicle was in the fire lane.
But Fields is back, sitting outside, and I’ve got a dead man in my place. Another one.
And my fucking pet is wrapped tight around him.
I need to solve this as I’m getting sloppy. Everything is taking a back seat to her. Hell, I missed another day of work too. I need to pull it together before my mind gets any slopier and I do get caught.
But that’s my problem. I don’t want to think about anything else but her. Her and her alone.
Work? Who needs it?
Playing superhero serial killer for the world? I can’t believe it but…I’ve got better things to do.
I’ve honored my mother’s memory, tried to make the world a better place, but it’s time to move on.
Pacing in what little space I do have, I try and figure out what to do, but I’m not given much silence and solitude because the intercom rings.
My eyebrows knit wondering who it could be.
I look at Keith’s pale body, Bojana still wrapped around him. But the last thing I want to do is hide. If you hide you’re guilty. I have to be calm, cool, and collected, so I go to the intercom and pick up the phone.
“Yeah,” I say into it, ready to hear Field’s voice.
“Hey! Class got canceled. The professor didn’t show up.”
My eyes move back to Allen. Of course, he didn’t, and he won’t be…ever again.
“Thought I’d drop by for a quick second round before I have to head back to campus. “But we have to be quick.”
“Wanna do it in the park?”
“Are you crazy?” she says, but I can hear her smile. “It’s daytime. We’ll get caught.”
“Okay. I was just about to shower. Let me get my clothes back on and I’ll come down and get you.”
“Just buzz me up. I can come up myself.”
Shit! The idea of having a visitor is so foreign to me I didn’t even process the whole point of apartment intercoms and how they work. How they save you time so you don’t have to go downstairs to let someone up.
“Okay, come on in.”
I make a buzzing sound with my mouth, not daring to press the actual button which will unlatch the door.
“It’s not opening.”
“That’s weird. Let me try again.” I repeat the sound, and of course it’s the same result.
“Still nothing.”
“The building’s too old. I’ll be right down.”