An oppressive sadness deflated the sexual charge between us, turning our lust into a bittersweet sting.
This was it.
Leaning forward, I nudged his nose with my own before kissing him softly. I put every ounce of love into the press of my lips, into the brush of my tongue.His hands caressed me, memorizing and savoring every inch.We parted,and he slowly shrugged his jacket off and undid his tie, tossing it aside. Never taking his eyes from mine, he undressed, tossing his clothes aside without another look.
A sob-likelaughshook my body at my little perfectionist cutting loose.The round, red scars on his shoulder and torso were a harsh reminder of all his body had been through since I’d known him.
Luca finally gifted me with a small smile as he stood naked in the middle of his office, clothes all over the place. “Your turn.”
Shaking my head, I laughed. For the first time in my life,I was nervous about taking off my clothes. My skin felt hot,and my stomach tightened in both excitement and dread. This was the end.
Luca’s eyes followed the path of clothes leaving my body until I stood in front of him, completely bare.“You are perfection,Sasha.” He trailed his fingertips down my jaw to my collarbone. “Nothing and no one will ever compare to you.”
Tears blurred my vision. Frozen in my spot, I was scared to touch him, scared to start something that had an immediate expiration date.
Luca caressed me, slowly walking me over to his desk, where he sat me on the edge. Standing between my legs, he tilted my chin up. “I love you.”
Fat hot tears started to roll down my cheeks while my heart leapt into my throat. I was just able to croak out, “I love you.”
“Whether or not we’re together, you own every part of me. Never doubt that.” He peppered my face with sweet small kisses, his big hands cradling my jaw.
I took deep breaths,trying to calm down, but I couldn’t catch my breath. It wasn’t fair. This wasn’t fair. We belonged together.
Luca wrapped his arms around me, crushing our chests together as his hands rubbed up and down my back. “I know.” His voice cracked.
Pulling back from him, I wiped my eyes. His hands rested on my waist, his thumbs gently tracing the curve.
“Luca, I’ve never loved anyone the way I love you. I just . . . I just . . .”
He leaned his forehead against mine. “I know.”
Nothing more could be said. Nothing more could be done. If this was goodbye, then I was going to make it count.
Pulling at Luca’s soft waves, I slanted my mouth over his, and the fire between flared. Our teeth nipped at lips, tongues tangled, and our hands roamed, creating a manic mess. With every roll of our bodies, his hardness pressed against me. Writhing against him, I became slick with desire.
Luca tried to drop to his knees, but I didn’t want his mouth. I wanted him inside of me, completing me.
My hand wrapped around him,pumping a few times before I lined him up with my core. Without missing a beat, Luca slid into me, my body enveloping him.
Our eyes connected as he stilled inside of me. We were drowning in our love, our loss.
Keeping my eyes open, I pecked his lips and grabbed his ass,trying to push him deeper. Luca groaned and started to rotate his hips, his blunt head moving deeper than I could’ve ever imagined. My head rolledback. It was all too much.
When I looked back at him,his face was flushed,and his jaw was tense. I could see how hard he was working to maintain control. But I didn’t want him in control.I loosened my hold on his magical ass,and Luca slowly thrust as if he was savoring the feel of us together. Every meeting of our hips, a wordless ‘I love you.’
A strangled moan tore from my throat,and his hips moved faster until each thrust punched the air from my chest. Our eyes stayed locked on one another, afraid to miss a moment.
Luca’s hands gripped my hips, his fingers digging into the softness there. My nails scratched down his shoulders, his skin prickling with goosebumps under their attention. My lips followed until I reached the base of his neck at his shoulder and bit down. Pulling back, the impression of my teeth sat red and angry against his skin. It didn’t feel like enough. I wanted to mark him all over. As if there weren’t enough scars already.
In no time, we were both moving against each other at a frenzied pace. The tight ball in my stomach threatenedto explode any second. His hand moved between us, his thumb circling my clit, and I came completely undone.
Crying out his name, I watched as his climax ripped through him. His jaw went slack, his lips parting in a groan. Collapsing, he burrowed his face into my neck.
I wrapped my arms and legs around him, holding him in place. Luca started to shake gently,and I felt a warm wetness on my neck. I dropped my armsto grab hold of his face,and sure enough,tearsran down his cheeks.
Wiping away his tears with my thumbs, I gently kissed his lips. “I love you, Luca.”
“I love you. I really do, Sasha.”