Then Zoe appeared on our roof. I haven’t been the same since. Her natural beauty outshines the stars.
I can’t figure out any way to keep her in our house and not be obsessed with breeding her. I’d like to think my willpower is stronger than craving such basic needs.
I’d even considered running with the testosterone-driven decision. Not my most glorious moment.
But my heart weighed in and that’s when the trouble started. Zoe’s a great person, always has been, if not a little weird at points. Fuck, I try to take our history out of the equation. Her avoidance of talking about college had stirred every protective bone in my body.
She needs someone to take care of her, I sense it. I just don’t understand why? Which is why I’m certain that one time with her will never be enough. Once I make love to her, I’ll commit myself to being everything she ever needs. A provider. A protector. A friend. I want to be Zoe’s entire world. I want it more than I want my own success—and that is terrifying.
How can I be everything for someone when I haven’t made room in my life for a single day of vacation?
Gripping the top rail of the deck, I lean out, willing some entity in the universe to give me a better answer. The only way I can see to make this right is by paying her the full amount we agreed on and asking Skylar never to send her to my house again.
Instead, every fiber of my being sees the benefit of one time with Zoe—a secret to keep the rest of my life. If I understood how to do it and walk away, I would. Will I break? Or will I hurt the only woman I’ve considered letting into my life? I don’t want to be a one-and-done kind of guy, but with her, I have to. That doesn’t even begin to assess how I’d deal with Carson.
He has it as bad for her as I do. His need to protect Zoe already broke through the surface. When he told me what he’d done outside, we agreed that he had to apologize and never lose control again. Then he gave her a shoulder rub. How had he not nutted?
This brings up yet another complication. I liked watching him touch her. I want to feel her moan on my cock while he fucks her to orgasm. I want to spray my cum deep inside of her then have Carson do the same. I want to watch her belly grow. I want to believe that the baby belongs to all of us.
That’s the most fucked up thought I’ve ever had.
A click from overhead catches my attention. I angle my head to the stars, listening as more sounds indicate someone is on the roof deck. If we were anywhere else, I would have missed these subtle sounds. But we’re here, in a secluded canyon. Nothing to mar the natural silence—except a faint hum coming from above.
Her intoxicating moans whisp on the breeze. I should go inside. I can’t. I’m enthralled then her moans pitch higher and she lets go.
Forcing a retreat into my bedroom, I should get back in bed. I should allow my live-in employee privacy. I should keep my life simple.
But I don’t.
I head straight to Carson’s room. He’s awake. No one’s getting any sleep with all of the sexual tension between us. I know what I have to do.
“She’s on the roof. Must not have liked getting called out for using a vibrator in the middle of the night.” I can’t believe what I’m about to propose.
Carson rubs a hand over his face. “I wasn’t going to say anything, but it’s like I’m in a fucking trance when I’m around her.”
“Same thing happens to me. I can’t take it anymore.”
“So what are you proposing?”
Nothing like a negotiation in a dimly-lit hallway between two horny guys while the woman of their dreams is masturbating on their roof.
“We pay her everything we agreed to but ask her to leave.”
“What?”
“I can’t do this. I would lose my mind if you hooked up with her. It’s the only way.”
“What if she agreed to both of us?”
“What do you mean?” I fear letting my thoughts out. I have to hear the words fall from his lips.
“If you say no, I’ll drop the whole thing. Pretend this never happened. I respect our relationship too much to let anything come between us, so be honest with me.”
“Okay.”
“Let’s see if she’s interested in a threesome. If we all agree to keep it quiet, no one has to know, and maybe we can all finally get some sleep.”
“Then what?”