I’m still inside her, and she’s sprawled on the desk, both of us breathing heavily. I pull out of her, grabbing my shirt to clean us both up. There’s no doubt everyone out there will know exactly what we’ve been doing, but I don’t care. Like I said, I want them all to know she’s mine.
I help her stand up and get dressed. She’s avoiding my eyes again, and I tip her chin up so she’s looking at me. “What’s wrong?”
She bites her lip. “I lied to you earlier.”
My mind starts to think back about everything she’s said, and I get a pit in my stomach. “What did you lie about?”
“I lied when I said that I needed to let off steam. Last night meant more to me than that.”
I stare at her, speechless.
She clasps her hands together as her face turns red. “But I mean, maybe I’m reading more into it...”
I shake my head. “You’re not. It meant more to me too.”
Her smile is fast and takes over her whole face. I can’t resist leaning down and kissing her. I have so much I need to do, but I don’t want to leave her side. I want to spend as much time as possible with her before she leaves. “You have plans for today?”
She rolls her eyes. “Yeah, I’m avoiding a killer...”
“Har, har, that’s not even funny. I was thinking me and you can take a ride up into the mountains.”
She scrunches her nose up. “On your bike?”
I nod. “Yeah...”
She puts her hands on my shoulders. “Sure. Sounds good to me.”
I put my hands on her waist and drag her against me. “Wow. That was a little too easy.”
She just shrugs her shoulders and leans her head against my chest. “Why would I say no? I know you’ll protect me.”
I hold her a little tighter. “Always.”
Chapter15
Allison
For days, Kane and I have been inseparable. I've slept in the same bed with him each night, but we don't do much sleeping. When he is not giving me the best pleasure of my life, we talk.
He talks about his days in the military. He's told me about the good, the bad, and the ugly. I talk about my mom, who I still miss and would give anything to have back. We talk about everything except for the future. It's like neither one of us wants to even think about what comes next. I know that I don't.
It's not even daylight out, but I woke up and couldn't go back to sleep. I know what today is, and I'm not ready for it to be here. I burrow into Kane's side and hold on to him. His arms tighten around me. His voice is gruff. "You can't sleep?"
I shake my head. "No, I was just thinking. I don't want you to do this today."
He told me last night what his plans were, and I'm not ready for it. It's not that I don't trust him, and I know that he can handle himself, but I hate that it's because of me that he's putting himself in danger. There's a part of me that wishes that I had never come here because no matter what heartache I felt in the past, I feel like when Kane and I do separate, it'll be the worst pain I've felt in my life, and I'm not ready for it.
He pushes me to my back and hovers over me. "We talked about this."
I bring my hands up to cup his face. "No, you talked. Now it's my turn."
He smiles and turns his head to kiss the palm of my hand. I can't get over the difference in him. That first day, I couldn't imagine him smiling, and now it's like he can't seem to stop. I hate what I'm about to say, but I know it needs to be said.
I know he’s not going to like it, so I rush it out. "I'm going to go home today."
He shakes his head. "You can't leave, not until it's safe."
I look at him sadly. A part of me had hope that he would say I can't leave at all. "I can't just stay here and let you do this. What if you get hurt?" It's on the very tip of my tongue to tell him that I love him. But I know that is crazy.