He gives me an understanding nod, his head moving on the soft fluffy pillow he’s resting it on.
“You’re not alone, Lilly,” he soothes. “We will be there every step of the way.”
I swallow hard, my eyes filling as the arm holding me from behind tightens, pulling me closer to the hot naked body at my back.
“And if it gets too much, just say the word and we’re outta there,” Ash murmurs in my ear, nuzzling into my hair and sending welcome shivers skipping over my body. “But you need to do this, Princess. Trust me, you need closure.”
“I know,” I mumble back, gripping his arm tightly as I continue to gaze into Kai’s eyes, my breath shuddering out between my lips.
At that moment, the door flies open, and Loki strolls in, completely naked—obviously. His emerald eyes find mine, and in the next minute, he leaps onto the bed in front of me, somehow managing to lie down underneath the covers as I’m bounced back into Ash, who gives an oomph sound at the impact.
“Loki!” I cry, a giggle escaping my mouth as he wriggles closer, successfully dispelling the sadness that was building in the room. He smells like vanilla and musky man, a scent that I am addicted to, his hair all mussed from quite clearly having just woken up.
“Dude, what the fuck?” Ash grumbles behind me, shuffling back to make room for the fallen angel that’s landed in our bed, which luckily is a double, although it’s still a squeeze with these two lumps in it.
“Jax is not a good snuggle bunny,” Loki pouts, and it’s so adorable, sexy, and ridiculous that I lean forward and plant a kiss on his lush lips. “And his morning wood should be classed as a fucking weapon of mass destruction.”
We all snort at that, which turns into full belly chuckles when Jax walks in, proudly sporting said weapon of mass destruction.
“What’s so fucking funny?” he asks, his deep voice gruff from sleep as he settles at the end of the bed. “It’s like the ass crack of dawn.”
I fucking lose it, laughing so hard that my stomach aches, and tears stream down my face.
“I fucking love you all, so much,” I choke out, looking around me to see matching grins on all their faces, their expressions soft.
* * *
We decide that as we’re all awake, arse crack of dawn or not, we might as well get up and get ready. Ordering breakfast, we lounge around in the living room until it arrives. I surprise myself by eating a healthy serving of bacon—crispy because anything else is just plain wrong and sacrilegious—toast and poached eggs, all washed down with my favourite tropical juice.
We leisurely eat, talking about everything and nothing. Then Loki and Jax join me for a shower, which helps to kill some time as they coax orgasm after orgasm from my poor abused pussy.I lie, Her Vagisty fucking loves it!We take our time getting dressed, using up more time until we’re ready to leave.
We’re due to meet Lex and Ryan at Highgate Cemetery at ten, so we order a car for twenty-past nine to leave plenty of time to get there. Once we’re seated in the car, I look around at my guys, my soulmates. We’re fairly colourful, Mum hated black so I decided that we’d be as brightly coloured as possible. The guys, all apart from Loki, struggled a little as they mostly wear dark colours.
Kai found some mustard yellow chinos, which he paired with a red check flannel shirt, a forest green cashmere v-neck jumper, and a matching green bow tie. He epitomises geek chic by topping it off with a green tweed coat and red cashmere scarf. Jax chose dark grey jeans and a sky blue t-shirt that makes his eyes pop, with a darker blue hoodie and a sports-type wool jacket. Ash has gone for a suit, of course, but in a navy pinstripe instead of black. He paired it with a vibrant Liberty print shirt, no tie, and a navy wool long coat. He looks like every woman’s wet dream, sophisticated yet devilish with his black tattoos peeking out at his neck.
Loki, wonderful, marvellous Loki, somehow without my knowledge, bought himself a pair of black rainbow dinosaur Run & Fly dungarees. He wears them with an emerald green t-shirt, just to prove that his eyes are as good as Jax’s, red Converse Chucks, and what looks like a vintage brown sheepskin bomber jacket, complete with tan fluffy wool at the wrists and collar.
I went for my Run and Fly rainbow pinafore, sparkly glitter rainbow heels, and a red wool short coat, with a beautiful peter pan collar and ruffles at the wrists. It arrived at the suite this morning, along with a note:
Saw this and thought of you,
Wear it today, Little Red.
Ash
XXX
I stroke the beautiful soft wool as we make our way through the early morning London traffic, having been driving for about twenty minutes already. I notice my hand shaking moments before Loki’s larger warm hand covers mine, intertwining our fingers. His other hand moves my hair over my shoulder, popping an air bud into my ear. The opening ofSteady Nowby Nilu begins to play, the words and gentle swell of the music perfect for calming my nerves.
My hand grips his as we journey on, the lyrics of the song flowing over me, encouraging me to take deep breaths, and know that this is just one moment in my history. It doesn’t define me, and it won’t be like this forever. The world keeps spinning, new things on the horizon.
The song ends, and I breathe a contented sigh.Too Sad to Cry, by Sasha Alex Solan starts to play next, and tears spring to my eyes.
“Shit,” Loki hisses under his breath, reaching into his pocket to change the song.
“Leave it, please,” I murmur, turning to look at him, his face wavering as the tears spill down my cheeks.
“Pretty Girl,” he replies, voice pained, his palm coming up to cup my cheek and bring our foreheads together. “I hurt when you do, baby.”