“You feel so good.” I pant.
“You’re pure heaven.” He says against my lips.
We both moan and I encourage him to go faster, harder. But Matthew never gets extra dirty. He doesn’t have to be kinky, doesn’t have to bark orders. He just tells me whatever he thinks: how beautiful I am when I come, how lucky he is to be with me, how much he likes me.
After three rounds – including one in the shower – we just lay in bed. Matthew watches me as I doodle across his chest with my finger. We don’t have to talk. He just strokes my back and runs his fingers through my hair while I try to figure out what I’m going to do with myself now.
IlikeMatthew. The other guys are fun and sexy, but Matthew is so much more. He’s so open, so compatible with me. I really think we’d make each other happy and it’s not like I can have all these guys forever. But Matthew … I could have a real future with him.
If that’s even an option after things end with the others.
MATTHEW
Over the next few weeks, Bella and I fall into a routine. She still enjoys the other guys, but I notice her drawing back from Holden and Nick. Nick has a million things to do considering we’re hiring for the New York location and even Miles barely has time to spend with Bella.
We’ve gone on at least one date a week and they’re not like the ones I was used to. In my past, it’s been a maximum of three hours together, four if sex happened, but I easily spend six to seven hours with her each time.
Rather than distracting with movies, we end up talking. Bella tells me about her but never mentions her previous relationships and when she catches me watching her or really listening, she blushes a little.
We make love every time, and when we’re together like that, I can feel a difference. When she’s with me and Roman or me and Gunner, it’s different. She puts the focus on us, pleasing us and putting on a show for whoever’s in the room. She obviously loves it, shamelessly enjoys it, and I’m pleased to see her so wild and thrilled. When it’s just us, she’s talkative and willing to try new things, new positions, and new places.
I think we’ve had sex just about everywhere in her apartment at this point.
“Matthew?” Bella raps on my office door.
I motion her in and she bites her lip as she looks me over. I’ve been ruffled all day and thinking about Bella definitely hasn’t been helping with that. I’m sure my hair is a rumpled mess, just like my clothes.
“Overworking again?”
“We all are. Preparing for this expansion is draining.”
“So you’re not going to be home on time?” She says it while looking at her tablet and adjusting a few things.
“Unfortunately, I’m not.” I lean back in my chair and stare at the ceiling for a long moment.
“Can you maybe get out on time tomorrow?”
I blink a few times and look over at her. Bella isn’t afraid to say what she’s thinking or what she wants. But here she is hedging.
“If I work enough overtime tonight and nothing wild comes up.”
“Then I can help you relax.”
“Bella.”
“Not here. I know the rules.” She puts a post it note on my desk. “A reminder.”
It just says “breathe and think happy thoughts.” I roll my eyes but thank her just as my phone rings. I deal with everything and end up in the office until ten. I groan when I finally shut down and see Miles leaving too.
He shakes his head. “I’m loving that we’re expanding. I’m all energized.”
“Are you sure it isn’t something else new in your life?”
He thinks about that. “Bella? She’s wonderful. A real delight, but I don’t have much time for her now. It’s a shame. I need her diligence in skill in the office more than at home. I might have to ask her to work late tomorrow.”
“You know she will. She’s dedicated to the company.”
“I’m well aware. She ignored just about all my flirting in the interview. Kept routing it back to her resume. She’s a clever one. She’ll probably get frustrated with us as work keeps picking up. Women don’t like to be left alone for long.”