“I don't know, it's a lot for a person to accept, and I will never be able to tell her that I am not all dark and twisted on the inside, because I am.”
“None of them know how dark I am on the inside,and they like me just fine. She will realize that you are the same person that you have always been and get over it. Eventually.” She could bewrong, but I don't point that out, there is nothing I can do about how Raven feels about this.
I did my part in telling her the truth and the rest is up to her.
“Our darkness isn't the same,” I tell her in a flippant tone.
“I know that! You are dark and dangerous, and I am broken and damaged. Two sides of the same coin. Though I have so many questions that would make Raven uncomfortable!” I figured that she would, there are a lot of things that she is comfortable knowing that would make Raven have nightmares.
“Of course, you do! Can we get ice cream first?”
“I’ll go get it! You jump in the shower and then I’m going to ask questions until your eyes fall shut!”
***
Goodness, she wasn't kidding, she wanted to know everything that I would tell her. By the time she gets around to asking about Top and Hollow, I am laughing.
“OMG! I cannot believe that you let me sleep with him without knowing that he was part of a bike club!” She is bouncing on her bed, and I can't decide if she is excited or appalled.
She wanted it dirty and nasty, the best place to get that is an MC that thrives on danger.
“Would it have changed your mind about him?” I probe, I figure it will tell me how she is feeling about it.
She doesn't take long to think about her answer before she is shaking her head, “Nope.” She pops the P like a child, and I flop myself back on her bed dramatically.
“Honestly it was hard enough to choose between them, they were both so sweet, and their flirting was on point.”
“Maybe you shouldn't have picked. You probably could have convinced both of them to come up here with you,” I fly off the bed and turn back to her with a horrified look. “You changed the sheets, right?”
Zoe points to the corner where her dirty sheets are wrapped up, “He did, while I was cleaning myself up in the bathroom he asked if I had extras in here. By the time that I was done the dirty ones were over there and he almost had the clean ones on! I mean, who the hell does that! Guys aren't that thoughtful!”
The world has painted this image of bikers that makes me want to laugh. They are supposed to be mean to everyone and use women for sex only, they don't have relationships with the kids and are always doing dangerous shit. But I have met men that are way worse than the bikers I know. Shit, just look at what is going on here at campus, some group of boys think that it's their right to take whatever they want even if the girl has to be forced into it and drugged. Men in the club would never dream of doing that, and if anyone was stupid enough the other guys in the club would likely kill them.
“You might be surprised by the people you would meet at the clubhouse.”
“OOOOO! Are they all as beautiful as Top and Hollow, because a girl could get used to having such yummy man meat around?”
“You might try to limit yourself to no more than three of them, any more than that and the guys might get jealous!”
“Shit! You are serious about having both of them, aren't you?” Zoe’s body vibrates with excitement, I don't know if she has ever been with more than one person before, but she is thrilled by the idea of it.
“I mean, I have all but decided that I am entering into a committed relationship with three older men. Who am I to judge you for wanting to be with two? I say get it while you're young, but I would appreciate it if you kept your relationship to yourself for now, or at least make sure the guys understand not to tell anyone who they are.” I don't know if I will ever tell the whole sorority about my connection to the club, but I decided to, it would be much closer to the end of the year.
“I would never dream of telling anyone your secret. You have kept the truth about my parents to yourself, this isn't my secret to tell.” She pulls me onto the bed to lay beside her, and we both make ourselves comfortable before she turns the light off.
“Tell me about these men of yours,” she rolls to face me and props herself up on her elbow.
“Oh lord. Okay. Let’s start with Scar, he is the Ghost Riders vice president. He is the shortest of the three, but he has a wide chest and thick arms. He has a scar on his face like the lion. He already had it when he got into the club which is where he got his road name from. He has this power in his voice that makes you want to drop to your knees and do whatever he asks. He is the type of man that walks into any room and turns into the boss, it's like you can feel the danger rolling off of him. He has always been the nicest one, sure he gets bossy, but he is a man that likes to be on top.”
“Bell is the enforcer, he is so tall that it hurts my neck to look up at him for too long, but I love it. He doesn’t give off vibes that he is that dangerous, and I recently learned that if you cover all his scars and tattoos, he looks like a nerd. The problem with that is he is easily the most dangerous, he is the enforcer for a reason. The dude is fucking crazy, I am sure the sight of blood excites him and there is NOTHING that he won’t do for the club. His moral compass is broken, and he has no desire to fix it.”
“Pyro is the road captain and a teddy bear. He is a little softer around the edges, but he is so damn smart. He was the first patch member that I truly felt was a friend, we bonded over being the only redheads in the club. He was always there when I needed someone to talk to, and he never complained when he was the one that had to escort me on shopping trips. He always has this smile on his face that makes you want to trust him, even though most people definitely shouldn’t.”
When I look over at her she is staring at me like I have a third damn eyeball on my forehead.
“Damn, bitch. You got it bad.”
“Don’t I know it.”