“Close them?”
“Uh huh.” Lila smiled. “Haven’t you ever been blindfolded before?”
Heidi tensed. She had been, not willingly, but she had been. She used to close her eyes when she wasn’t blindfolded so she didn’t have to see what was happening. Lila’s fingers against her cheeks caught her attention.
“Tell me.”
Heidi shook her head and sat back on her heels. She drew in a deep breath, calming her racing heart and re-centering herself. She was safe. She was exactly where she wanted to be with someone she wanted to be with. Lila wouldn’t hurt her.
“All right, no blindfold unless you change your mind,” Lila muttered. “Talk to me.”
“I’m fine,” Heidi answered tersely before biting her lip and shaking her head. “I do mean that. Sorry. I just needed a second. I don’t want to be blindfolded.”
“Then we won’t. Only what you want.”
Lila ran her fingers in gentle circles over Heidi’s thighs. It was comforting, and Heidi eased back into the moment, pushing her trauma behind her as she focused on the woman underneath her. “Make me feel everything.”
“I will if you still want that.”
“I do.”
“You’re sure?”
“Yes. I’m positive.” To make her point, Heidi bent down and took Lila’s mouth in a heated kiss. She deepened it, pouring everything she had into that one moment. Lila raised her hands to Heidi’s back, dragging them down her spine to her ass as she pulled her in closer. “I’ve never been more sure.”
“Tell me what you feel.”
“Safe,” Heidi stated firmly.
“Really?” All of Lila’s features softened, her tone sounding almost placating or patronizing, but Heidi knew she was being genuine.
“Yes.” Heidi kissed her again, hard.
They stayed that way for some time before Lila broke the embrace and got a cocky grin on her lips. “Move up. Sit on me.”
“Fast becoming my favorite position.”
Lila chuckled. “Because you have all the control when you do it.”
“Do I?” Heidi leaned back as she straddled Lila’s head so she could look at her fully.
“Oh, yeah.” Lila curled her arms around Heidi’s thighs. “Ready?”
“More than ever.”
Lila’s tongue reached out, circling around her clit and flicking it. Heidi grunted, her hips rocking sharply as a surge of pleasure shot through her. She reached down and gripped Lila’s beautiful hair to hold herself steady. Next time they’d have to do this in a bed with a headboard. It was much better the way she’d done it with Ann.
Soon enough, she was barely able to think. She moved against Lila, not able to control her body as pleasure coursed through her. It was such an odd feeling, as though she wasn’t in control of herself but at the same time she was. She had invited it to happen. Sounds she’d never heard herself make before left her lips.
She’d never been this lost in a moment. She’d never felt this connected to someone she’d made love to—not even Ann, and God did she want to experience this with Ann. She wanted to have every single damn wall she had built up broken down between them. Heidi cried out as her orgasm ripped through her. She tried hard not to clench her thighs around Lila’s head, but she wasn’t sure she was successful. When she finally was able to focus, she was on her back, Lila raised up on her elbow, staring down at her as she trailed her fingers in random patterns over her breasts, along her belly, between her legs.
“How are you feeling?” Lila asked.
“Fuck,” Heidi muttered. “Is that what I’ve been missing out on?”
“Apparently.” Lila giggled lightly.
“No wonder she’s so into sex.” Laughing at herself, Heidi closed her eyes and flung a hand over her face. Lila bent in and captured one of Heidi’s nipples between her lips, teasing even more. Before Heidi knew it, she already wanted to go again, but first, she wanted to make sure Lila had the exact same experience. “Come on, your turn.”