I give her the small locket, and she gives me a barely there smile. I’m losing her.
“Thank you, Rex,” she whispers, then lies back down on the bed. I take a deep breath then tell her all the thoughts that have been running through my mind.
“We can try again, Kitty. We can keep trying until we have a house full of babies,” I tell her, fighting for her to just look at me.
She sniffles, and I fold her into my arms, and let her cry. “I can’t do that Rex. I don’t ever want to go through something like that again.” I shush her and continue to rub her back. I agree with her for now. But she will be the mother of my child. Some way. Someday.
CHAPTER13
NOW
CAT
He is getting more agitated with me. Every little thing I do just sets him off. I’m scared. No matter how much I keep trying to appease him, he’s on edge. He says I’m whiny and ungrateful, but I don’t understand. I have been the total opposite. He keeps buying us stuff, and I thank him.
I think he’s suffering from delusions, and that puts me even more on edge.
He won’t look at me today as he keeps fucking me into the mattress. I try to bring his eyes to mine, but he restrains my wrists above my head. His thrusts get harder, and I wince. I no longer fight him, maybe that’s the issue. I’ve given in.
“Rex, stop, please,” I whimper as his pace becomes punishing. I close my eyes and let the tears fall. I know I’m going to be sore later and covered in his bruises again. I twist my wrists, hoping he will loosen his hold just a little, but he gets more aggressive. I try to move my hips to get some relief, but it’s pointless. He’s lost in his thoughts somewhere. He’s not here in this moment with me.
A loud grunt leaves his lips, and I sigh in relief. He rolls off of me, not bothering to check if I’m okay or ask why I’m crying. I don’t know what is going on with him, but he is changing more and more every day. I thought things started to get a little better. I stopped disobeying him as much, and he really seems to want this baby. He calls her our second chance. I don’t even know if she is a girl. He doesn’t want to find out, and that's a fight I’m willing to avoid. I could care less about what it is, as long as it’s healthy and safe.
He climbs off the bed and leaves me there. He walks into the bathroom and slams the door. I jump at the sound but don’t dare move. The baby kicks, and I gently rub my belly. It’s so crazy feeling it move around in there. I’m so big now, I can’t imagine it has much room to move. I think it’s a boy, but I wouldn’t dare say that.
He comes back to me this time with a smile, and I sigh. He climbs beside me and rests his head on my belly. Something is bugging him.
I hold him as he clings to me and talks to the baby. I run my nails along his scalp, and he groans.
“That feels nice,” he mutters before falling asleep. I lie there not daring to move. I just need to keep him calm and happy, until I can find a way out of here.
Rexley
I am gettingsick and tired of her attitude these past few weeks. Nothing I do seems to make her happy. I buy her anything she could ever want or need for the baby and still she whines and complains. I’m about to lock her down in the basement and leave her there for the next month.
All I wanted was to spoil her, treat her like a queen, but her ungrateful ass is about to see my real darkside.
I storm off the boat and grab the last of the bags. I stomp up the stairs to the front door and unlock it.
The smell of cookies fills the air, and I groan. I drop the bags by the stairs and shuffle to the kitchen. Trays and trays of cookies cover the counters. Cat is standing there a mess of flour and egg.
“What’s all this?” I grumble, and she jumps. She gives me a smile, but I know it’s fake. She thinks she can fool me. Everything these days are fake. She doesn’t think I can tell she’s just trying to appease me.
I’m about done. If she wasn’t carrying my princess, I would toss her ass in the sea. Let the sharks get her. She is not the woman I love. I can’t believe I thought I could get her back.
I leave her to her baking and move over to the study. I lock the door behind me and slide the bookcase to the side. I drop some bags inside the hidden door, then quickly shut it. I don’t have time for that crazy right now.
But soon. I think it’s time for a family reunion.
CHAPTER14
THEN
CAT
“Are you sure you won’t come with me? Hot Italian guys, fancy resorts, parties. It’s going to be a blast,” Nicole tells me as she finishes packing her bag. I roll my eyes and sigh. It really does sound like a dream, but I can’t. Rex will never allow it, and after losing the baby, I can’t leave him. I’m worried about what his guilt might lead him to do. We just made up. He seems to have really taken our loss to heart and is trying to reign in his possessive behavior. He even agreed to go to therapy.
“I would love to, but now is not the right time. I have finals still and Rex. I’ll be okay, but you have an amazing time. Maybe we can come visit you after graduation.” I pull her into a hug and give her the bracelet my nana gave me the day before she died. I still can’t understand how she was fine one moment and having a heart attack at the dinner table the next. Nicole gasps and refuses to take it, but I just give it to her again.