He walked away again before coming back and pulling me against his back as he spooned me. “No problem. I came a lot, Avery. You feel amazing.”
“So do you.” I assured him as he stroked my stomach with a gentle hand. I had a thought cross my mind, and I snuggled into the pillow, memorizing Ben’s warmth. “Can I ask you something?” I asked softly as he enveloped me with his arms.
“Sure, anything.” His answer was simple and his voice husky as I shivered against him.
“Do you mind this? I mean, do you mind sharing me with two other men?” I asked, as he sighed behind me.
“There was a time when I would before I worked here. I thought I was doing everything right and by the book.” Ben slid a hand up to cup my breast, squeezing gently. I lived in New York and worked corporate for a nonprofit conservation society. I always cared so much about that and thought I found my dream job. I even got married six months into the job to my longtime girlfriend and thought we’d have everything, down to the proverbial white picket fence. Those are hard to come by in the city.”
I laughed and agreed with him. “Did you have an apartment like I did?”
“It was an apartment, but not quite the size of a shoebox, as many others are. I preferred the idea of living in a house away from the city and commuting into work, but Erin wanted nothing to do with the idea. She told me she loved the excitement of living in the city and being close to everything.” I silently remembered that’s how I was for the years I lived there. “So, we stayed. I worked the typical days and some nights while she wrote articles for a local paper, and we seemed to do alright. We paid our bills and went out to eat sometimes when we could. It was a life much like any of our friends had.”
I covered his hand with mine, feeling like he needed support. “What happened?” I asked softly as he let out a sigh.
“A year into the marriage, I thought everything was great. We both worked a lot, but so did everyone we knew. I’d take her out on a free night, and we even celebrated our anniversary. I thought we’d have kids within the next year and live the dream, but I found out that she was having an affair a month after our anniversary. It was with the husband of a friend and had been going on for two months.” I heard the devastation in his voice and felt him wrap his arms tighter around me.
“I’m so sorry, Ben.”
“Finding that out changed everything for me. Everything.” He took a deep breath. “I told her to get the fuck out of the apartment, but it went deeper than that. I felt like the life I’d been living was for someone else entirely. Even my job stopped making sense since all I did was make money and turn around and put it into something the company wanted me to. Day after day, I lived in a concrete jungle and did that and after I split with my wife, that wasn’t what I wanted anymore.”
I heard my voice in my head as Ben spoke. Did I want the same thing? Would I stay in Lake Placid, working at the lodge and dating these three men in my life? “How did you end up here?”
“As you know, I went to school with Jefferson. We stayed in touch, and I called him when everything happened. He came up with the idea for me to move back here and work at the lodge with him. Jefferson knew what an outdoors guy I was and offered me the job as head of landscaping and ultimately events at Peaks since the two go hand in hand together. I accepted right away and sold the apartment, giving Erin what I owed her. From there, I drove here and never looked back.” Ben fell quiet for a moment. “I spent a few years doing what didn’t make me happy and now I am here. I love my job and my friends. I love holding you like this when it’s cold outside and listening to you laugh. I just take life by the day and it’s better with you in it.”
“Thank you,” I told him as I smiled.
“Are you happy here, Avery? Do Charlie and Jack make you happy?”
“Yes,” I told him honestly, not wanting to answer his question with a lie. “You all make me happy.”
“Then that’s all I want for you. If I can be a part of your happiness, it’s an honor to be here.” Ben’s answer was simple as he pulled me against him.
I knew it didn’t solve the problem of keeping this secret from Jefferson and the terrible way things could end, but I was content in life right now. I enjoyed being with Charlie, Jack, and Ben. I liked the way they each made me feel in their way and how safe it was to be wrapped up in their arms.
Ben asked with a laugh if I’d spend the night with him and I turned to face him, gazing into his eyes in the soft light from the hall.
“I am not going anywhere in this cold weather. I’ll just need to change into work clothes before I leave tomorrow.” I smiled and leaned in for a kiss. He returned it, cupping my neck as we deepened it together. My body hummed at the idea of Ben being inside of me again, and I longed to have him in my mouth.
After making out for a few minutes, I told Ben to get on his back so I could have my way with him. I kissed his neck, feeling his cock against my skin as I drifted down his body. His chest was lightly covered with hair, and I found his nipples, drawing them into my mouth.
Ben moaned, pulling me closer as I giggled against him. I nipped at him, hearing him hiss as he gripped my hair.
There was something so powerful about having this control over a man, especially someone like Ben. He was big, confident, and determined, and I felt like he was putty in my hands as I kissed down his stomach. I licked his cock from top to bottom a few times, tasting us on his skin.
When I’d teased him enough, I took him in my hand and slipped his tip into my mouth. He groaned and one hand stayed in my hair as he closed his eyes, giving me control.
I moved up and down over him, sucking him firmly as I took him deeper into my throat. Ben was a big man everywhere but kept moving slowly to adjust to him. I wanted this, and I needed him to come in my throat. He warned me after a few moments that he was close and I moved faster, hearing Ben moan my name.
He came into my mouth and down my throat, groaning as I drank in every drop. “That’s so hot, Avery. I wanted to fuck you again, but your mouth is sexy as hell.”
“There’s nothing saying that I won’t let you.” I teased him once he was clean, lifting my head to meet his eyes.
We got some water for our break and when he was ready for me again; I straddled Ben and rode his cock hard. He felt so good filling me this way and I cried out his name when I came.
I moaned as he pushed me to my back, continuing to jerk inside of me before coming himself. I dropped to my side, knowing I was done for the night as I took ragged breaths.
Ben cleaned me again, and we slipped under the covers, where he held me in his arms until I fell asleep.