I switch tops twice and put on a bathing suit in one of my pictures. We eventually go to the laptop because it's just faster to set all of it up that way versus trying to do it on my phone. Right away the site starts matching me up with men. Some are really, really old. I take a moment to swallow the bile rising in my throat and soldier on. This is the beginning of my new life, of the new me, and I can't be timid if I'm going to get what I want out of life.
Even if what I want out of life no longer has any meaning because all I wanted was for Evan to love me. Time to find new things to want. Time to find a new Daddy to take care of me.
One of the men I've looked at kind of reminds me of Evan. It wouldn't be too hard to...spend time with him if I squinted just right and lied to myself when I do.
I type back before I lose my nerve. When he asks to know more about me I wonder for just a second if I should go for a lie or tell him some version of the truth. I decide to go with half and half.
I just got out of a long-term relationship that ended pretty badly.
Do you need someone to help take away the pain?
Oh shit, I think this guy would come pick me up today if I asked him to. I sit for a little while trying to figure out how to reply back to him. Then we hear the knock on the door. We both look at one another and slam the computer closed without me replying back to MotorDaddy175. I can only hope it's Fox coming to look for Bunny.
"Who is it?" Turns out I'm not that lucky.