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BILLIE’S POV
Idid not know what I was going to wear. Seriously, this was kind of a nightmare. Now I'd never been one to spend too much time on what I looked like, I'd survived this far in life using my natural looks, and I was sure that I could keep on going, no problem. Except for tonight. Tonight was something different.
Probably because I'd never been on a date with four men before. An idea that thrilled me way more than it terrified me, but still there was no getting away from how different it was. It was going to be wild. Unfortunately, it wasn't something that I'd planned for when I packed up to run away. I didn't have anything to wear that would be suitable for a date.
"This is going to have to do," I said with a slight frown as I examined the sleeveless sun dress. This was nothing like what I would have worn if I had options, but by this point, I didn't see any other way I could go. I just hoped the guys liked it.
I was glad that Joey had run around all day long and had tired himself out because it allowed me to really take the time to make sure I was dressed the best I could with what I had at hand. I had a feeling that all the guys were keen for us to have some peace tonight as well, because they helped me wear him down and even put him to bed. By the time Cody got to the end of his bed time story, our son was crashed out asleep, and actually snoring, which was a great sign.
He only snored when he was fully shattered, so we had nothing to worry about.
I already had my hair and make up done, so by the time I slipped the dress over my head, I was pretty much ready to go. Actually, the end result was better than I expected it to be. I felt pretty good as I admired my reflection.
"Good," I whispered to myself. "Because tonight is going to be a turning point, I'm sure of it. For all of us. This is going to be the first day of the rest of our lives."
No one had expressly said as much, but they didn't need to. I could just tell. Physically, we all knew how we felt about one another now, but there had to be the talk. It was that talk I ran away from six years ago when I was too scared to hear what Cody had to say, but I wasn't running anywhere now. I was all in.
As I smoothed down my dress and fluffed up my hair, a flurry of excitement flooded my body. I wondered if this would be the first time when I could finally be with all four of them. That hadn't happened, I hadn't even experienced more than one man, but it promised to be epic. I really couldn't wait. The sex kitty that had been unleashed inside of me on the trip was overwhelmed and thrilled.
The giddiness remained in me as I headed to the stairs. I paused at the top for a few moments, sucking in as much air as I could manage. I didn't want to be weak at the knees from the off. Ideally, I wanted to be in a good place, all happy and content, cool as a cucumber, so I could enjoy every second of this.
But any coolness that I'd obtained simply melted away into nothingness as I headed down the stairs. I couldn't hold onto any of it because all four guys were there waiting for me with expectant looks on their faces.
Silence flooded me, but no words needed to be spoken for me to feel things. Cody was smiling, all too familiar with this, but I could sense the heat emanating off of him anyway. It was obvious he wanted me even from here. Phoenix had his hands twisted together, circling them around and around. The smile was stretched right across his face. I could sense how turned on he was and how badly he needed this, which made my pulse pound. This was almost too much... almost. Jasper had that intensity to his gaze once more. It was as if his eyes were piercing through my soul in the best way possible. His eyes sent a shiver of delight down my spine. Grant was filled with warmth. He always was, but it was more appreciated here than ever before. I adored that man from the bottom of my heart. I wondered if he knew that.
Actually, I'd been feeling a lot of love for all these men. I mean, this wasn't something that I would have been able to step into easily if I didn't feel that way. Judging by the way they were all looking at me like they wanted to devour me whole, I would have to say that their feelings were all over the place as well.
"You all look..." I paused before making a sweeping gesture with my hands. I appreciated the effort they had all put in. Like me, they didn't seem prepared for what we were coming here for tonight, none of them had packed date worthy clothes, but that was a good thing. It meant that I didn't have to be paranoid about how I looked.
"You should see how you look, Billie," Cody growled. "You are something else."
The other guys made agreeable noises, but seemed like they couldn't quite find the words to say anything. I hoped that was a good thing! It made me feel really sexy to think I had them all speechless. I wanted more of this!
"The food smells amazing, Jasper," I told him with a flirty wink. "I can't wait to get a taste. What have you made for our special date night?"
Jasper pressed his finger to his lips playfully. I guess he wasn't telling and I would have to wait and see. Not that I minded. As him and Grant headed to the kitchen to get the dishes, Phoenix took one hand of mine, and Cody the other. Already the electricity surging between all of us was that much more intense. It was almost as if my feet weren't hitting the ground as I walked. I was floating on air.
They led me to the living room, which had been absolutely transformed. They had a roaring fire set up, plush cushions covering the floor for us to sit down on, and candles flickering everywhere. That was before I even noticed the rose petals strewn about the room, covering the floor. This was officially the most romantic thing to ever happen to me. It wasn't exactly like I was consumed with doubts anyway, but I definitely didn't have any now. This was absolutely perfect. I was overwhelmed.
"Here, take a seat." Cody sat me down before Phoenix kissed me. "Enjoy."
The meal was absolutely incredible. I knew it would be because Jasper had some serious talent in the kitchen. Talent that I was worried that we were taking away from the rest of the world. Not that I minded being a little bit selfish...
But the company was even better than the food. My God, these men... they had me absolutely thrilled to the core. Not only was I constantly tingling with desire, but I couldn't stop laughing as well. They were my friends, lovers, and protectors, which made the deep bond we all shared that much stronger.
"This is nice," I suddenly said, without even realizing that the words were coming out of my mouth. "I don't think that I have ever been taken out on a date."
"You haven't?" Grant stared at Cody in shock. "Really? No date ever?"
"Oh no, that wasn't some kind of dig." I laughed, as I reached out to rest my hand on top of Cody's. "It just wasn't like that back then. We were secretive..."
"And how will it be now?" All of a sudden, Cody turned serious. It seemed like we were getting down to business before dessert even arrived, which was probably for the best. I mean, that was obviously what all of this was in aid of after all.
"I think it'll be different?" I cocked my head to one side, basically asking him a question rather than taking charge. Yeah, that wasn't what he wanted. "I mean, it'll definitely be different. No more sneaking around, no more hiding. I want us to be open and honest with our relationship. All of us." I looked at them all in turn, drinking in their expressions. "I mean, Joey accepting us all is all I care about. Nothing else matters to me as long as we're happy and okay, you know?"
"That's good," Cody replied. "Because that's what I want as well. A proper relationship, a harem, all of us. I can't imagine anything better."
We shared a silent smile, but of course this wasn't enough clarification for Jasper, which I could completely understand. He needed to have things spelled out for him before he could feel comfortable with everything.
"We're all going to be together." I nodded firmly. "Somehow we're going to make it work. Once my life isn't in danger anymore, we'll get a place together and we'll..." I shrugged my shoulders. "I don't know, do whatever it takes to be happy."
I slid my eyes closed for a moment and envisioned that life. I tried to think about how it would be to really be in a harem relationship, maybe in New York City where my life was before. I wasn’t worried about how other people would view us, I really didn't care. I just considered the happiness and joy we could bring to each other's lives. It would truly be amazing, wouldn't it?
"I like that plan," Phoenix agreed. "I haven't always had the best experiences with relationships, and with harems too, but I just know that we can make it work. Jasper has helped me to see that this will be the best relationship ever."
I grinned at Jasper. I didn't know what he had said to Phoenix exactly, but if it had worked, then good. After all, we all needed to be on board for this to work.
"I'm happy about it as well," Grant confirmed. He said this aloud even though I didn't really think we needed him too. He was a free loving spirit, of course he was going to be on board. Plus, that chemistry we shared... mmm, just thinking about it now had me all tied up in knots in the best way possible.
I liked the way this night was headed. The air was growing thicker by the moment, the sexual tension intensifying. We might have all been sitting around eating calmly for now, but it wasn’t going to last.
Instinctively as we started to eat dessert at long last, I found myself pulled towards Phoenix. I'd kissed him, but hadn't yet gone any further, and I was intrigued. I'd fooled around with all the other guys, and I felt like me and him were missing out. It wasn't that I was planning on sending the other guys away––I did want them involved too––me and Phoenix just hadn't been given the chance as yet. But now... well now I was going to make sure I touched and tasted him all over, that I felt him inside of me, just like the other men. I wanted to explore every inch of him and have him do the same to me.
Maybe it was the sips of wine I'd had, maybe it was the excitement, I wasn't sure, but either way, I ended up sitting on Phoenix’s lap. Already I could feel how much he wanted me, and I couldn't stop myself from grinding against him. Conversation flowed around me and Phoenix, and outwardly we probably seemed like we were engaged with everything, but we'd locked ourselves in our own little bubble. Just me and him connected at the core.
The pretense only lasted for so long. Eventually, I twisted myself around, angled myself towards Phoenix, and started kissing him––slowly and passionately, deeply and seductively. My body prickled from his touch––especially as his hands slid down my body and eventually slipped into my panties.
It wasn't just me and Phoenix for a long time. Soon, I felt Cody's arms snaking around me from behind, Grant peeling my clothing off, Jasper touching me with a soft romance that drowned me in flames. I lost count of who's hand was where, who's tongue was tasting me, who's lips were upon mine. The sensations were too amazing, too intense, too all consuming. I might as well have not been connected to the earth any longer at all, which I didn't care about. I was happy to soar into space.
This was different, very different, even to being with any of these guys one at a time. There was something much more powerful about all of us, there was a connection, something indescribable. I already knew that I wouldn't be able to hold myself together for very long. I was already on the knife edge of desire...
* * *
I couldn't catchmy breath. Actually, I didn't think I was ever going to be able to breathe again. That was... I couldn't explain it, I had no words. I couldn't even make sense of it myself. But I suppose I didn't need to, that was the blessing when it came to multiple orgasms, endless waves of pleasure that I didn't think would ever stop. I didn't want them to stop either. It was phenomenal.
We'd only paused for a moment because of the exhaustion. Not the guys, it seemed like they had energy for days, but for me. I just needed a second to get myself together before we started again. If I thought I was a sex kitty before, well now I was a sex lioness. I didn't think that I would ever get enough of these men.
Wow! I could see now why people were more than happy to engage in a harem. Just because it wasn't the norm for non-shifting people didn't mean it was wrong. My God, how could anything be wrong when it felt so damn right?
I splayed myself wide on the plush pillows spread all across the living room, feeling suitably comfortable being completely naked in front of eight desire-fueled eyes. I knew that they all wanted me, and liked my naked body. They had more than shown that the way they reacted to me. I was still fizzing with burning hot bliss, flushed with desire, tingling all over. I never wanted to be with just one man again. No way, my eyes had been opened to a brand new world, and that world was my home. I absolutely loved it, it was where I was always meant to be.
"Are you okay?" Cody asked me as he stroked gently down my cheek.
"Oh yeah, I'm fine," I replied breathlessly. "I think I might be in heaven, you know? I didn't know it was possible to feel this good."
He chuckled and pressed his lips to mine. "Trust me, it feels that way for us as well. It allows our wolves to really be unleashed in a way I can't even explain."
Phoenix lay on the other side of me, rubbing my arm as Jasper grabbed us drinks from the kitchen. It was only Grant who had suddenly vanished from sight. That was enough to have me sitting up a little straighter to try and locate him.
"Where's Grant? Where has he gone?"
"Oh, I think he went to check the satellite phone," Jasper reassured me as he walked back into the room with a tray of drinks. "He wants to keep on top of things, no matter what."
"Oh yeah, of course." Oops, I guess I'd forgotten about safety in the middle of all of this. But I couldn't be blamed, could I? I mean, I was in the middle of my whole life being turned on its head and everything changing. "I hope all is okay."
A part of me never wanted to leave this safe house, because that was exactly how I felt within it. Safe. Safe from the Russians, and safe with my men. But there was another part of me that couldn't wait to have my life back in order so I could get back out there and start living again. I wouldn't be able to exist in the same life that I'd had before, but I didn't want that. I wanted something brand new.
I grinned to myself––I couldn't stop myself from smiling. My God, was I going to be this happy for the rest of my life? I'd been through some hard times, but I didn't know if I'd struggled so much as to deserve all of this joy. Not that I was going to turn my back on it because it was the best thing ever...
"Guys..." But that heat zapped right out of my body when I saw Grant and heard the tone in his voice. "I just went to check the satellite phone, and I smelled something. I didn't want to freak everyone out, so I shifted to be sure...”
"And you are sure?" Cody jumped up, snapping into action. As did Phoenix. I kinda expected panic to settle in me because this was everything that we'd been fearing and more, but I didn't. Instead, my military training kicked in and I snapped into action. I wasn't a damsel in distress, I was here to help.
I grabbed my clothes as everyone hurried around me to make sure that they were all in the right place at the right time. Someone, Cody I think, handed me one of the guns. I guess my job was to stay in the house to protect my boy. Of course that was what I was going to do because Joey was my priority, but it was kinda hard as well. Because everyone was here because of me. This was my fight, I wanted to be able to play my part in making sure that this situation was dealt with and my family would be safe.
You have been part of a team before,I reminded myself. You know how it goes. Everyone has their role.
Just like when I was a member of Project Hammond. If we hadn't worked together as such a close-knit team then, we all would have ended up dead in Russia.
Although my team was all dying anyway, so what the hell difference did it make? Urgh, this sucked. I couldn't bear the idea of losing anyone else––especially these men.