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Chapter 16
Paisley’s POV
Sly and Ijumped as the hotel room door closed behind the other guys. We snapped apart as if we'd been electrocuted, which was funny since the idea I was about to propose involved all of us doing things like this all the time.
God, I was nervous about it. So freaking anxious, but it was now or never. This was our last night in Las Vegas, my last chance to say something. It had to be now.
"Hi," I practically whispered as I looked at each man. There was a mixture of mild confusion and intrigue in their eyes, which was too exciting for words. I had to try to hold myself back so I didn't go nuts. "You want to take a seat? Hold on, let me just move some stuff from my bed. It's gotten a little messy in here since I've been making the dress Claire wore tonight."
"Oh, that dress was incredible," Jake immediately gushed. "I really liked it. I think it's the nicest thing she has worn the entire time she's been here."
"Yeah, for sure," Ollie agreed. "I loved it. She looked phenomenal."
"Mmhmm, yeah. Lovely," Vinnie said, but his voice was all croaky and weird.
"Thanks." I nodded seriously. "But I'm not here to talk about that." I rubbed my hands together, trying to gather up my nerves. "I actually wanted to talk to you guys about us." I pointed between us all. "About what could happen next."
"I have already told these guys about a harem life style," Jake reassured me as he pointed to Ollie and Vinnie. "And I think Sly already knows."
He nodded. "Yeah, I know all about harem lifestyles. It's a big thing for us."
I let out a little breath. At least if I didn't have to explain it, it would be a lot easier. I didn't know how I would go about that. I'd done a lot of research, I'd read an incredible amount, but I still didn't know where I would begin.
"Right, well, I was thinking," I looked at each of them in turn, "that could work for us, because, if I'm right and not misreading things, I have chemistry with all of you. Intense chemistry. Unlike anything I have ever experienced before. You all have so many qualities that I want, that I need in my life. Qualities I didn't even know I needed until I met you all, but now I can't get enough of each and every one of you."
I paused to take a breath, to try to gather my thoughts, because I didn't feel like I was doing a good job of explaining all of this. I'd planned it out and rehearsed it over and over in my head while I was making Claire's dress, but now that I was here with all these guys staring expectantly at me, all my plans simply melted away. My brain was empty and useless. I couldn't remember a single freaking thing.
"Sly." I turned to him first. "There has been a magic between us forever. Ever since we first met, there has been something there. Even when we tried to keep apart from one another, we've been brought back together. It's magnetic." Sly smiled at me, dimples popping in his cheeks and his eyes crinkling. He might have typically been a very serious person, but there was something wonderful about his smile. "I really like your protective personality," I continued. "Your caring nature. The way you look out for everyone around you, whether it's for your job or not. You make me feel safe."
He nodded, just once, but I could tell my words had touched him. He wasn't one for showing his emotions much, but he didn't need to. I could read between the lines, I understood him enough to know what he meant.
I twisted around to Jake, who was already smiling at me. "Jake, you always have a way of making me laugh, even if I don't think I'm in the best mood. Plus, you have been really easy to talk to. I found myself opening up to you without having to worry that you would judge me. That's really refreshing. Something I haven't ever really had before. It means a lot to me. I hope you know that."
"I'm glad," he replied quietly. "It means a lot to me that you feel like you can open up to me. I hope I have been helpful to you, I really do."
I nodded, unable to express just how much he'd helped me. I hoped that if we ended up spending more time together, I would get the chance to tell him everything. Or at the very least show him with my actions every single day.
"And Vinnie." I gulped as I turned to him. "I might not have spent much intimate time with you, but that doesn't mean I don't want to. You have been so encouraging when it comes to my career. No one has ever been so wonderful, no one has ever believed in me quite as much. If it wasn't for you, I don't know where I would be now. Probably just sketching secretly in my bedroom still."
"I'm so glad I could do anything for you." Vinnie pressed his hands to his chest, holding onto his heart for a while. "You deserve to have a really successful career in fashion design. You are more talented than you could ever know."
Tears brimmed in my eyes. But these were happy tears. I was overly emotional because this was all I wanted. So far, all the guys were taking this incredibly well. Not that they had agreed to anything yet.
"And Ollie." Now my heart was really racing. "Ollie, you seem to understand me in a way no one else does. Without me even needing to express anything in particular, you just get me. Maybe because you're such a good listener—"
"It's because I care so much about you," he insisted, smiling. "I feel like I'm really in tune with you, you know? And you get me as well."
Our eyes locked for a beat too long, sizzling heat burning between us. I almost wanted to cross the room to kiss him, to kiss all of them, but I suppose I had to give them a moment to think things through. After all, I'd had time to work stuff out. I'd given myself about a week, so I had to offer them time as well. Jake might have already gotten it, because it was he who I discussed things with in the first place, and I already knew Sly seemed up for anything, but Vinnie and Ollie, I wasn't sure where their heads were. I couldn't tell by looking at them either. Neither of them was giving too much away.
"Well, um, I don't know." I shrugged helplessly as heat burned in my cheeks. "I guess that's all I need to say. I just wanted to let you know this is what I would like moving forward, but only if that's what you guys want as well."
Silence hung in the air. It was so thick that I needed to take a step back because I almost couldn't handle it. I fell back on the nearby chair and just waited. Surely, someone would say something in a moment. Someone would break the silence before my head exploded.
This was killer. All I wanted to do was jump and run around like an idiot, just so we didn't have to sit in this stifling quiet any longer. Even if it had only been a couple of moments, that didn't change a thing. I couldn't deal with it.
"Well…" Thankfully, Jake was the one who stood up first. Since this was definitely easier for him, he took it upon himself to take control of the situation. "As you already know, Paisley, I am here for you. I have definitely, one hundred percent fallen in love with you. I want to be with you, whatever the situation."
He reached out his hand to me and I took it. The feel of his fingers laced through mine brought that smile back to my face. The smile that wouldn't falter as he leaned down and kissed me, sealing the deal. He was mine, and I was his.
"I love you too," I whispered delicately at him. "I hope you know that."
He squeezed my hand three times, almost as if he was saying "I love you" to me. Then Jake sat on the floor beside my chair with his free hand on my leg. It was as if he wanted to touch me all over. He couldn't get enough.
"Yeah," Sly agreed, standing up to stride across the room to join us. "I feel the same way. I want to be with you as well, Paisley. In whatever way makes you happy. I know I probably come across as someone who might be possessive and unable to engage in a harem type relationship, but that isn't the case at all. I'm more than happy to give in to my animalistic side, my wolf side, and engage in a polyamorous committed relationship with you."
The tight knot that had formed in my stomach had loosened a little bit. I really did think Sly might struggle with this. I thought of him as someone who might find this hard. He's certainly came off as passionate and possessive when we slept together, but it seemed that my judgement was wrong. He was fine.
Sly cupped my cheeks in his hands and kissed me deeply, passion flowing between us. The sensation was so intense I could hardly contain myself. With Jake's hand on my lap and Sly kissing me like this…it was even more electrifying. I had been a little worried that it might be too much to have more than one man with me at once, but the reality was already feeling more than a little awesome.
His hand remained on my shoulder as he stood behind me, massaging my shoulder a little bit as I looked between Sly and Jake, beaming at them happily. I was too nervous to look at Ollie and Vinnie just yet. I was so scared they wouldn't want to be involved in this. I thought it might be overwhelming.
"I think you know how I feel," Ollie finally declared, dragging my eager gaze over to him. "I've been absolutely addicted to you ever since we first kissed. I think I already knew in that moment I would give up anything for you. Anything at all. All I have wanted to do is keep on kissing you, keep on holding you forever." His eyes danced as he spoke, and I could see him almost coming to life. "I might have been married before, but I don't think I ever really understood love. I thought I had it, but it can't have been that. The fact that I was rejected because of my shifter side just proves that there was no real love there." Now it was his hands that took mine. I was buzzing, vibrating with need. "But this…even if it's completely different from any relationship I have ever had before, I'm excited for it. I feel really good about what is to come next. I need to be with you, you know?"
I nodded enthusiastically. "I hope you know that I accept you completely. I don't have any issue with your shifter side. It makes you who you are."
I grabbed him and pulled him to me. I couldn't wait to kiss Ollie. I needed that magnet to connect already. I needed to feel him, to experience this connection. Holy shit, my brain turned to mush. I was freaking scrambled. All three of these men…having them all touching me, even in an innocent manner, was mind blowing.
But eventually, he had to pull himself away. Much as I was lost in the space dust of desire, and salivating for more, there was still someone else here. Someone else who could walk away from this if he wanted to, but hopefully would want to be a part of this as well. This was dropped on Vinnie more than anyone else. He was most likely to not agree to this.
I caught Vinnie's eye as he rose to his feet. But he didn't come over to us right away. Instead, he remained at a distance, which felt like a freaking mile-long chasm at the moment, and paced up and down the room thoughtfully. "I think…I think I want this too. I do. I just need a moment to get my head around it. Because this won't be a traditional relationship. Not that I have an issue with it or anything, that's not it. I think I just need to change in my head what I thought my life was going to look like, and instead focus on what it really is going to look like."
I clasped my hands together nervously, silently trying to communicate with him that I would do anything to make him happy. I was pretty sure we all would. And if it didn't work out, then so be it. We would cross that bridge when we came to it, if we came to it. I really felt like we would regret this if we didn't try.
"Yeah, you know what..." All of a sudden, Vinnie crossed the room and took me in his arms. I rose to my feet automatically, hoping against all hope that this meant what I thought it did. "I want to be with you, Paisley. All of you."
His kiss barely registered as Vinnie began to pull my clothing off. Oh my God, it was happening. It was really happening. I was getting everything I wanted and more. Within seconds, Sly was tugging off my pants, kissing all over the back of my exposed throat and touching me between my legs. Caressing me, exploring me, massaging me until I was in absolute ecstasy.
Ollie's tongue was all over me as well. I didn't even know he was joining in until he was right there. Jake as well. His expert fingers were all over me, exploring me everywhere. I couldn't think straight, I could hardly see, the passion was burning all the way through me. I couldn't keep track of who was touching me where, of what was even going on. Clothing was flying everywhere, and not just mine. The guys were stripping down as well, showing me body parts I knew well and others that were absolutely brand new to me.
It was so exciting, so thrilling, so intense that I couldn't remain standing anymore. Thank goodness we were already over by the bed so I could collapse onto it with them surrounding me. I was even more grateful now for these giant Las Vegas beds than I had been when I first arrived.
If I thought it was nice sleeping in it alone, it was so much better having these incredible men all around me, touching me, tasting me, sending me flying. I barely even felt like I was connected to the planet anymore, the sensations were so delicious, so overwhelming, so intense and powerful that I wanted to scream.
In fact, I might have been screaming. I could barely tell anymore. I definitely felt like I was vibrating with need. The orgasm was already building. It had been coming ever since I first started my little speech tonight, taking us in a brand new direction. I hoped so desperately that this would work out, and that these guys would want me as much as I wanted them, but actually having that was something else.
If it was always going to feel this good, I couldn't imagine this ever ending. I couldn't imagine us ever wanting to end this. As the pleasure began to creep through my body, I knew this was the first day of the rest of my life.
This was it for me. The true loves of my life. Sly, Jake, Vinnie, and Ollie. All of them. How lucky was I?