Every night seemed to grow longer as we’d make love in the upper-level bedroom. It ranged from fast and rough to soft and sweet, but it was something that I could not get enough of. I craved Perry every single moment of the day and attacked him every night when we arrived back at the cottage, dragging him into my obsession with me. I loved to taste his skin, nipping at it as he groaned my name and tugged at my hair.
We even found a few private areas around the resort where we took part in outdoor sex. There were places in the trees where we’d crouch low to the ground as our bodies slapped together, me riding Perry while he met me thrust-for-thrust. I always struggled to keep from screaming his name as I came, clutching his strong shoulders as I felt the waves of pleasure ripping through me.
There were places on our beach where we could be alone and in the water as he fingered my clit to a release, his fingers buried inside of my bathing suit as I bit down on my lip to keep from crying out his name.
I gave him a blowjob at one of the bars one night, outside and around a corner where we could hear but not see some of the other guests. I was down on my knees, taking him into my mouth as I pulled against his ass. Perry was big, but I’d learned to relax and get him deep into my throat, and tonight he was fucking my mouth with earnest. I felt him thicken before he shot inside of my mouth, eager to swallow it all down as he panted and held my hair. He dragged me to my feet and back to the cottage, leaving our drinks at the bar so that he could fuck me hard and deep while I was on my knees in the living room. We’d christened every surface of the cottage and joked that they would have to clean up well after we were gone, something that made me a little sad.
Perry had a successful business back home, but I wanted to be here with him forever. I knew that I worked hard through school to go back and get a stable job that I’d dreamed of for so long, but a part of me would give up all of that to stay here with him. He could never work again or do it from afar and be just fine, along with the money from my parents. I’d never ask that of him, though.
I would just go home and have faith in whatever happened.
The last day was one where we explored all our favorite places, taking endless pictures of the turtles and fish that swam just under the surface of the deeper water. I made a point of taking photos of us, memorizing the natural happiness in his face as well as the way that his blue eyes shimmered. Perry was gorgeous and meant everything to me, and I wanted these memories for the rest of my life. I walked the soft sand of the beach, taking in the sound of the waves as I looked all around and fought the urge to cry. Perry took me to a special dinner that night in the restaurant, where I sipped wine and tried to hold my emotions in. I knew that he could see right through me, smiling as he told me that everything was going to be good.
He took me back to the cottage and right up to bed, worshiping my body with his mouth and hands. I cried as I came before he crawled over me and entered me with one deep thrust. It was carnal and raw, expressing all the mixed emotions between us. Perry drew my feet to his shoulders as he took me, staring down into my eyes. I came first with a guttural cry before he shot deep inside of my pussy, rocking slowly against me.
We dozed lightly, waking up to move together all over again several times during the night as well as first thing in the morning. Our flight was early, and I was quiet as we made our way to the plane. I slept on the longer flight, feeling a sense of dread as we came closer to Colorado. Something was going to happen, though I didn’t know what.
Even his hand holding mine in my sleepy state didn’t assure me as we moved closer to home.
I came back to find a few emails about possible jobs, all over a few states. My internship and high grades paid off, and I read all the messages with a mix of excitement and dread. The best overall offer was from a graphic design company in California, on the beach. They had an excellent starting wage, incredible benefits, and perks and it was in one of the most beautiful coastal towns on the west coast.
I accepted an interview, flying over to meet with the head CEO to talk in person. I packed as Perry watched from the doorway of my room, asking me questions about the position. We’d cooled down considerably after arriving back home, which had a lot to do with my withdrawal from him. I suppose it was to protect myself against the inevitable. I knew that I would accept a job at some point and perhaps even move, not surprised when the best offer was in another state.
Even Perry had to admit that this job sounded perfect, urging me to do well at the interview. Before I would have hugged him for that, but now he just got a smile.
I checked into my hotel in Santa Barbara, looking out over the water that was a darker blue than the one that I would always coin as mine and Perry’s. It was still gorgeous, though, and I licked my lips as I glanced at the white bag from the local drug store that was sitting on the table. Its contents would have everything to do with my decision about this job and my future.
It just might change everything for me.
Chapter Ten
Perry
Once we were back, I thought that I’d enjoy being back at the office and normal life. I knew that Caroline was going to start considering jobs and the beginning of her life, though I preferred the one that happened at The Brando Resort. She was everything that I could have wanted, in and out of the bedroom. Caroline kept me interested and laughing when we were talking, always waiting for the next words from her mouth. It was always a natural and easy time with her, as it always had been without the electric attraction between us. I knew that others noticed it, both men and women, and it fueled my desire for her further. She was a beautiful woman, and though I didn’t tell her, I was falling for her. I wanted to ask her to stay with me, but she worked too hard to give up her dreams. It was what her parents would want as well. I had to honor that.
I watched her pull away from me once we were home, though I knew that she couldn’t deny the feelings and attraction between us.
They were heavy in the air as she talked about the interest she’d received once we got back. Caroline sounded excited when she told me about what each company offered, making my heart drop when she said that the one in Santa Barbara offered her the best package. That wasn’t far as far as distance, and it could be worse. I just knew that she wouldn’t be here with me, safe in my care. Caroline had someone always watching over her, whether it was her parents or me as her guardian. Now I was looking at her, talk about her future all on her own when it felt like my heart was breaking inside of my chest.
I hadn’t had that feeling since I lost my best friend and his wife.
I asked her about the job as she packed to go for the interview, trying to sound like a guardian would. In truth, I couldn’t stop thinking about how beautiful she looked when she came for me. I couldn’t ever forget how it was to be inside of her that first time, the first man in her life. I felt honored that her dad was the first man to love her and that I was the one she gave that precious gift to. I would never forget how it felt to hold her in my arms as I slept, and now my big bed felt empty and cold.
Caroline was moving closer to her future, though. That was what mattered. She folded clothes for the two nights that she would be there, talking about the company and perks that came with the job offer. Caroline mentioned how much she loved the beach and I wanted to scream at her how much I knew that. I was the one making love to her every night and morning with the sound of the waves coming through the open windows. I wanted to remind her how it felt as I fingered her in the water, feeling her tremble against me as a climax tore through her. I remembered all of that as she kept talking, and I clenched my fists.
Could she actually walk away from us?
I drove her to the airport the following morning, hearing her nervous babble the entire way. Caroline wouldn’t look at me. When I dropped her at the curb, she gave me a loose hug and walked inside of the terminal with barely a backward glance.
I thought that everything improved at the island between us once we gave into our desire. I wasn’t sure how it might work when we arrived home due to the nature of our relationship, and I didn’t think that she was either.
I also didn’t expect her to be looking through job offers so quickly, but why was I surprised? She was brilliant, and I was confident that her reputation preceded Caroline after the impressive work during her internships. She needed to see what she could get, something that see
med to be a weight on both of our shoulders.
I drove home from the airport alone, feeling a little lost. I wasn’t ready for Caroline to leave me, especially after the vacation. Everything about that was perfect, and what I wanted in my life, just with a woman I would have never considered before. She moved from a little girl that needed me to take care of her to a sexy, mature woman that got me going, even now sitting alone in this car.
Fuck. I drove out of the parking lot and home, going right to work in my home office as the silence settled in the house. The last eight years played through my mind, the good and the bad. I finally admitted that I loved Caroline inside of my head, deeply and in a way, that I’d never feel about anybody else.