As he grips my hips hard and thrusts once, twice, I feel my orgasm hitting me hard. I cry out as pleasure like I’ve never known before washes through me. And as I hear him groan, I feel him come inside me, and it only heightens my pleasure. I’m crashing, falling, this wild feeling taking over my entire body.
I’m panting hard as I come down slowly, his body still pressed against mine, holding me tight. I don’t know if I’ll ever recover from how good this feels. I can barely see straight and my whole body is shaking, just as he promised it would be. He kept his word.
And heaven takes on a new meaning now. We’re both still in the moment but in a very different way. As our climax subsides a glow takes over, we just hold one another close, and it feels almost as good as the feeling we’ve just experienced. He shifts off me and lies beside me, but pulls me close so that my head rests on his chest. My heart is thumping hard, my body still trembling a little, and I close my eyes, relishing the feeling.
This is what it feels like to matter to someone. It’s a new feeling, and one I never want to let go of. His hand rubs up and down my back, his fingers tickling my skin a little, and it feels so good. When he kisses me on the top of my head I smile. I didn’t expect to feel this good. Maybe I’m still holding on to doubts that he might leave me behind. But I need to get out of my head and accept that I’m finally getting what I want. Let go of my old way of thinking. I don’t have to fight anymore.
“Wow,” Leo says after a long moment. “Just wow.”
I giggle quietly, feeling a little high on the whole thing. I nuzzle into his chest, not ready to talk about it all yet. I just want to lie here and bask in what just happened. I want to relive it in my mind, to let all those emotions sink in. Because this has been the best night of my life and I never ever want to forget it. It signifies so much to me. I’ve stepped over the line into womanhood. He’s taken my virginity from me, but he’s also given me so much more. He’s given me the love and affection I deserve.
He’s made me feel like I matter.
“Thank you,” I whisper as his hand strokes my hair.
“What for, baby?”
I take a deep breath. “For everything. For showing me how much you care. That I matter. For proving to me that this isn’t just a dream, it’s my reality now. I’ve spent a long time feeling scared of what might happen if we dived in at the deep end...feeling scared of how it might end. But you’ve taken all of my insecurities and got rid of them for good. I can finally see that you want me just the same as I want you. I feel safe with you.”
“I’ll always keep you safe,” he growls in my ear. “Just like I’ll always love you. I’ll always give you the time and attention that you deserve. Show you the respect that I know you’ve been lacking in the past. Forget that creep Dan. I’ll never treat you the way he did, and I’ll keep you safe from men like him. He can barely even be called a man after the way he acted. I’ll show you exactly how a real man should treat a woman. I’ll show you that I mean it when I say I’ll protect you. Give me time, and I’ll show you just how much you mean to me.”
“It’s okay. I trust you,” I murmur. And it’s true. I’ve had doubts this past week, but those are quickly fading away. With his arms around me, it’s impossible not to see how much he really cares.
I think back to my life before this. He was always in the forefront of my mind, but so far out of reach. I was miserable, being taunted by Dan and Rachel. They gave me a hard time because I didn’t want to follow their rules. I didn’t want to give up my dreams of being with Leo to please Rachel, and I didn’t want to give in to Dan’s advances to please him.
And now I’m so glad I went through all that suffering because led me here. I didn’t just go for the easy route, which would’ve been so easy to do. I stuck around for love, and now I’ve been rewarded. It feels like fate.
“What’s on your mind?” Leo asks, kissing my forehead again. I sit up a little so I can look him in the eyes.