“I’m going to come,” he growls. All of a sudden, I feel the evidence of his arousal shooting down my throat. It’s hot and there’s a lot of it, filling my mouth, coating my tongue. I swallow some of it as it comes, but I can’t stop it from dribbling from my mouth, dripping down onto my bare breasts. I suck the rest off his cock, feeling proud of myself for giving him the ultimate pleasure. This is what I’ve wanted for so long. I wanted a chance to prove myself as the perfect woman for him. Now, maybe he’ll understand just how good I am for him.
He takes a step back and watches me with his forehead glistening with sweat. His eyes drop to my breasts, his come settling between them and dripping down. I lick my lips, putting on a show for him. He growls deeply at the sight, but I know I’ve pleased him. I know that he loved every second of this thing we’ve shared.
“You’re incredible,” he growls. He offers his hand to me to help me up and I take it, rising to my feet. He backs me up against the desk and I realize how different this feels when it’s with someone you want. When Dan backed me against the wall, I felt nothing but panic and disgust. Now, my body is trembling with desire, my heart thumping hard for all the right reasons, and I feel like I need more of this. Our naked bodies press together as he wraps his arms around me.
“I’ve been waiting so long to do that,” he growls in my ear. I smile and blush at his words. He knows exactly how to make me feel special.
“Me too,” I whisper back. His hands move down my back and cup my ass, pulling me closer to him.
“To be continued,” he growls and I blink in surprise. I was expecting our journey to continue from here. I know he’s spent, but I thought he’d be ready to take my virginity in a few minutes or so. Is he telling me it’s over for the night?
“You’re going somewhere?”
He shakes his head. “No, but when finally do make you mine I want to make sure you’re ready for it. You’re emotional tonight, and I know you’ve been through a rollercoaster. I think we should wait.”
I feel a little deflated. I was ready to go. I accepted a long time ago that I wanted to give my virginity to him...and now he’s telling me to wait. Does he not want me? Was he not pleased by what I just did?
“But…”
“Let’s go to bed,” he says. “We can figure all of this out tomorrow, and maybe then we can take this all the way. Trust me, I don’t want to wait. I want to fuck you so hard right now. But I don’t think tonight is the night. Not after what happened.”
As he moves to grab his clothes, I wonder what I’ve done wrong. Is he having second thoughts? Is he thinking about the inheritance again? I can’t blame him for being concerned...it’s his whole life, after all. But our connection is so strong. Can’t he see that it’s me who is meant to fill the spot of his lover? I’m the one he’s meant to marry, to love him for the rest of his life. And when we’re right in the heat of it all, he wants to hit pause?
Is it my old insecurities making me doubt myself? Tonight has been a lot, so maybe he’s right. Maybe we should slow things down a little. But the only thing I’m certain about and have been for a long time is my feelings for him. All I want is to dive right in at the deep end. I want to pull him back to me and show him just how much he means to me.
But I don’t. Instead, I dress, feeling strange in my own body. I keep my thoughts to myself. And though he leads me upstairs to his bedroom, lets me into his bed, and falls asleep beside me, I’ve never felt further away from him.
Chapter Nine
Leo
Turning down sex with Amelia is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. And I mean that. I want her more than anything. But there were a lot of factors telling me it wouldn’t be right. I need to make sure this is what she really wants. After what happened with her and that scumbag Dan, I don’t want our first time to be on the same day as that. Secondly, before I take things further, there’s something I need to know.
I’ve accepted now that I might not get my inheritance, Amelia is more than worth it, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t check whether I’m still eligible. If I don’t have to throw it all away to be with the woman of my dreams then I’m not going to. In other words, I have to check whether marrying Amelia would count as fulfilling the clause.